Finally, I/O report was done 2 days ago....

It was a nightmare that driving me to crazy!!!

In progress of I/O report, I had gotten fever for few times,

one was high fever, scary experience (first time)...

Overall of the assignment, it cost about RM300 plus...

the most expensive assignment I had

Now, I totally forget about past experience (I/O assignment)...

and focus on other assignments (3 of them)...

2 are from group process and another is career guidance integrative report...

after all the assignments, final exam will be coming soon...

I won't be having holiday, because of the thesis 1...

such a college life...

I want travelling by the way...

who can go with me???

I'm badly wishing I can meet a right person that always travelling with me...

Learnt Helplessness

Again...

I already used to my exam result...

Damn it!!!

Should see a counselor...

Lost

Touching Song I had never ever heard before....

I can't believe it's over

I watched the whole thing fall

And I never saw the right man was on the wall

If I'd only knew

Days were slipping past

That the good things never last

That you were crying

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain

And the rain turned into tears upon your face

I hardly recognized the girl you are today

And god I hope it's not too late

It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone

I'm always there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through

Cause when you feel like you\'re done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When your worlds crashing down

And you can't bear to fall

I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy

It can tear your soul apart

It can make you feel like you've gone crazy

But you're not

Things have seem to changed

There's one thing that's still the same

In my heart you have remained

And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone

And I am there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through

'Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When the worlds crashing down

And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost

I said, baby, you're not lost

I said, baby, you're not lost

I said, baby, you're not lost

小波动与大波动

怎样的人能够让你有小波动的心跳？

那怎样的人又让你有大波动呢？

已经好久没有大波动了。。。

小波动就一堆。。。

大波动，你在哪里？？？

老子常主张顺其自然。。。

随缘吧。。。

哈哈哈~

It has been a long time that something hidden fire in my body and it's always trying to drive me to a crazy mode and I always suppress it without any reasonable reason. I'm wondering whether it is my inner self want to push me to further steps and what is the reason I stop it.

Sine there is no reason, and why don't just let it be dominant and go for crazy...

"No great life was ever built on a foundation of excuses. So stop making them."

I think I was afraid of changes, rejection, unfamiliar incidents...

Because of that I started making excuses and always thought that I'm at the higher level of the building to see things differently from others, but I realized that I'm wrong all the way. Making excuses doesn't make you live high...it's just a self-defense and a seemingly beautiful lie on myself.

Too ironically, I always told my friends that to do what you want to do, to be what you want to be. But, it's hardly to happen on myself and I hardly to present my real self in front of others.

"To be what you want to be..." Damn it! Too ironic! I have to do something now!

NEVER EVER LIE TO YOURSELF

Mahjong Marathon!!!

This time and my first time that I play mahjong till vomit...

We started playing at Friday night (about 12am till 6am)...

Then it finally ended and had a good sleep (till Saturday, 2pm)...

then....no choice....

started another round at about 330pm....

and ended it by 1130pm....

OMG...

Super tired and my head is damn heavy now

Gosh...

Last day for Mid Term

Last day, my mid term exams were finished....

but...

Usually, as a college student, they will have lots of plans after exams even for the last day...

but...

I don't have this kind feeling that my exams are over...

maybe...

I only had 2 papers and it seemed quite easy... technically, I'm not sure whether it's simple...

because...

I only took 2 days to study 2 papers...

so...

you can see how much effort I had on my papers...

I need a target as a driver to fly me to the moon...

I need motivation to fasten up my steps...

I need stamina to stay up most of the time...

I need...