Born to Change

IT World

2011-08-19T04:31:00.000-07:00

Once I work in IT line...

I'm starting realized that people talking to people through IT gadget even they are physically close /=

A family is able to afford more than two iPad2/ iPad...

Can you imagine a family outing with iPad2 is less mouth to mouth sharing or communication?

Cuz most of them concern on the screen!

One outing with friends, all holding their gadget (iPad, PDA etc) and no talking session just surprised me enough to wonder how the world would be like in future...

And now Android tablets are growing more and more in the market...

you can easily find 10 different tablets out there...

Interestingly, Google and Apple are having war soon...

Tablets are growing, Netbooks are dying...

I still like going out without gadgets (except phone!)

A future with digital communication...

You are my gift

2011-07-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Since noway, i'm just in love someone like you.

you give me how life feel like.

you show me how love feel like.

you once you and only you.

though time may not allow us to be together all the time,

but our heart always together.

i will breath whenever u are alive.

for i made a commitment live with u til i die.

loves

Lord is the best

2011-06-21T19:03:00.000-07:00

Time flies, things change, people change

But never change my love to the Lord and the gift from heaven...

God forms my soul, she complete me...

God is love, love is God...

He is awesome all the time...

Praise the Lord...

I love You and you...

How Human Capital and Human Resources are different

2011-04-06T00:20:00.000-07:00

Current trends in employee relations.

If you are an employer, or manage employees, you have probably heard of Human Capital. It is a new trend in workforce management. But how does this relate to Human Resources?

We may think of "Human Resources" as a department within an organization, or as measurable labor performed by an individual. Many of us are not familiar with the term "Human Capital" at all; still others are confused by its meaning.

The significance of the myriad contributions made by human beings, whether called human resources or human capital, reaches far beyond any boardroom.What and how individuals contribute is critical to the growth and advancement of any given society and to mankind, in general.

What is the difference between "Human Resources" and "Human Capital"? Perhaps the simplest explanation can be found in one of the resources we commonly rely on to gather information - the dictionary

"Resources" have been defined as "The total means available for economic and political development, such as mineral wealth, labor force and armaments. An available supply that can be drawn on when needed."

"Capital" is defined as "Any form of wealth employed or capable of being employed in the production of more wealth."

Simply put, by definition, resources are finite. We can strip coal, gold and iron mines until the supply is exhausted. Capital can be infinite, as it can be used to produce more and more capital.

Few can argue that capital makes the world go ‘round. We rely upon the powerful performance of financial capital, technological capital and human capital to keep it spinning.

Human capital is partially comprised of skills, understanding, knowledge and experience - some of which may be innate. From a broader perspective, human capital includes the character, ethics, personality and creativity of a human being. Even if we are born with these attributes, it is often required we spend time, effort and money to retain or to grow them - thereby, increasing human capital.

We may accumulate, maintain and increase human capital in many ways; through education, job training, work experience, life experience, investment in health, etc. Time, money and effort are spent acquiring human capital.

Capital is capital - you spend something now, in hopes of getting a return on your investment later. Many companies have come to recognize their investment in human capital may be the most important investment they will ever make. When it comes to human capital, you are investing in people and the "return" you receive most likely is much more than financial gain. You may also gain knowledge, a larger group of contacts, more productivity, increased happiness and security.

In this competitive world marketplace, the likes of which we have never seen before, it is crucial that Human Resource professionals recognize the importance of investing in human capital. Experts agree that it costs much less to retain an existing employee than to recruit a new one.

A recent article in Real Estate Weekly highlighted the ways in which a real estate services company both values and invests in human capital.

Michael Rodriguez, President of Alliance Building Services, wrote about the incredibly high turnover rate in the real estate services industry. This industry includes cleaners, security guards, messengers and restoration workers. It is quite common for industry workers to come to work late, disinterested and ready to quit.

Mr. Rodriguez states "To make money in business, you must invest money. The same principle applies to keeping quality employees on staff and motivating them to do their job well". While many industries, corporations and organizations espouse "Our employees are our most valuable asset", many "do" little or nothing to back-up this message.

The President of Alliance Building Services was determined not only to "talk the talk" but to "walk the walk" as well. Investing in his employees became a top priority. He decided to focus on improving employee services and technology to show employees he cares. Improvements included:

• Setting up an Employee Service Center; this center is staffed by knowledgeable professionals who are in place solely to provided better services to employees. Employees get immediate assistance with questions regarding medical insurance, safety concerns, personnel issues, etc. Employees now feel they are being "heard".

• New computers, along with the latest software, have been added. Many of Alliance's staff had little knowledge of computer basics. Free thirty-minute instructional computer classes are now offered during lunch breaks and before or after work. These upgrades benefit the company by increasing productivity and efficiency. Employees are learning a new, marketable skill which boosts morale.

• New recognition programs have been put in place, such as "Employee of the Month, Quarter and Year". Each honoree is rewarded with a bonus, a paid day off and their picture showcased in Real Estate Weekly.

• Most employees felt there was no room for advancement in the company or within the industry - they believed they had "dead-end jobs". Alliance now offers partial tuition reimbursement to all employees. With a chance to increase their knowledge base and their own human capital, many employees have taken advantage of this opportunity.

Since these changes have been implanted, Mr. Rodriguez is pleased to report a 30% decrease in turnover in one quarter, a happier and much more productive staff.

link: http://hubpages.com/hub/How-Human-Capital-and-Human-Resources-are-different

2011-04-04T16:24:00.000-07:00

Speaking in Year of Transformation

As What I study, there is always a risk or pressure when life changes come...

Now I understand with my heart and I'm experiencing it the process...

Frustration, Moodless, Mentally Tired, Complains...etc

And, I'm looking for a way to release all these negative emotions from my body...

Fighting within myself, struggling and struggling...

Start to think does the employer value his/her staff...

Money=Value in workplace...?

Are most of the employer "same style" in employees' eyes?

What I can say is that when you have these kind of feelings and emotions

especially complains most of the time,

Just take a break, give yourself time to clam down and do reflection...

So good to be true sitting down and thinking nothing...

But I'm missing her right now...

Miss her

2011-03-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

Missing someone that I truly love is like breathing in pain...

Listen to her voice through phone...

See her through skype or photos...

Hugging her through imagination...

40 days, I'm wishing the time fly rapidly...

Till the day I meet her at airport...

I want her to be stronger and stronger...

yet I miss her so much...

miss her laughter...

her smile...

her caring...

Undoubtedly, I'm deeply in love with her

as she always says to me...

she is drowning in my love...

Thank God for guidance,

Thank Jesus for your love.

We can walk together with hand holding tight for life.

Thank you bb!

错了

2011-02-06T16:32:00.000-08:00

我错了

如果让爱里产生了恐惧，那会是怎样的感觉。。。

让最爱的人产生了恐惧，又是哪一种感觉。。。

两者，结果会是怎样？

时间不能倒流，事实已成历史。。。

唯有往前看，无论多难走的路，也不放弃。。。

错了，不代表错一世。。。

错了，要补救。。。

I know one thing that is the most precious from Jesus is love,

She is the most precious gift in my life from Jesus...

There is no take 2...

慢

2011-01-22T20:04:00.000-08:00

随着时代与科技的迅速进化，生活的脚步也逐渐加快了。。。

健步如飞的步伐也使人忘了慢下来的生活方式，

甚至根本就不懂得慢生活的存在。

我常告诉自己能够慢下来是福，

能快则快，得慢则慢

古人曰：欲速则不达

当休息的时候就得放慢，越慢越能乐在其中

慢得妙，快得劲

True Love

2011-01-21T11:13:00.000-08:00

I set my blog title as Born to change...

Because I want to be ready to face the change...

This time, I'm changed by her love...

I'm like a reborn person hope she's the same to me^^

And, I promise myself that I never give up this time no matter how many challenges in the future

I'm ready to face the challenges together with her...

Thank you Lord...

I'm deeply in love with her...

Because of Your love, I know what love is...

Jesus Christ died for us, that's true love...

Dear I love you

Love - Part 1

2011-01-17T06:55:00.000-08:00

有一种男人（其实有些女人也是这样），
他知道只要他期待，他得不到的时候，他一定会失落。一定会难过。
所以，他宁可选择不期待，那么他就不那么难过、不难么失落。

有一种男人（有些女人也是这样），
他知道只要他想要拥有，他一定得不到他所拥有的。
所以，当你准备先嫌弃他，抛弃他；
他主动先抛弃你，离开你。

《主动离开你》，《选择不期待》，
就用这两招数让自己的生命在一种没有质感下生活。
生活，生活，继续生活。

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It has been a long time that I was busy about my life...

Life can be either easy or hard...

A nurse and a counselor used to be my math teacher taught me a lot of things in my life. Both of them see life as the most important thing because they have been taking care of people with sickness, hopelessness, loneliness yet they're still hoping there is someone able being with them before going to heaven.

Just a sharing from a nurse, helping patient to clean their mess after a toilet break actually is a part of their job especially most of the people think that it's disgusting. Trying to think deeply, when we are born and brought up by our lovely parents without any complain but what I have heart and seen is that 2 parents are able to raise ten children but ten children are not able to take care of their 2 parents. Why it is so?! Because of the old man/lady smell?! Or their slowness?! Think again, who makes them into these conditions! They sacrificed because of love. Most of the people in this world are so busy about their financial stuff till losing the meaning of love. Being a nurse, it's not easy. First thing, they have no high income like people in the business world. Secondly, most of them are facing patients with sickness or deadly disease. They are fighting in a negative environment yet they have to stay positive to motivate themselves to keep serving people who are in need. Not a ordinary person can do that even a psychologist needs therapy. Thirdly, most of the nurses spend their life in serving patients, most of the time are given to patients.

I can see true love from a nurse and a counselor that not ordinary people can understand and practice it into real life till they physically experience it. Willingness of letting ourselves to serve people in need with true love.

True love is Jesus Christ. Amen.

2010-11-02T08:38:00.000-07:00

I just slowly realized that the purpose of my blog is to keep other interesting blogs and read their updates rather than writing my own stuff. Especially, one of my favorite blog owned by a counselor in Singapore and he was my math teacher when I was in high school. His blog usually was written about his inspiration from his work. And, his values and beliefs really change me a lot in terms of values of life and the way to treat others.

Besides that, I have Jason Mraz's Blog as well. Somehow I can know he's quite supportive in green from his blog because he keeps advice people to save the environment. And of course he sometimes post his songs. I like the way how he connect life and music together.

Kina Grannis, another singer I like since I heard one of her song named valentine. Once you know me for long, you will know I like jazzy, country, swing or some smooth music that really can go with feelings yet meaningful.

Actually, I should get a camera maybe a good spec of digital camera to take some photos as human memory isn't perfect as we thought like a snap shot of everything we see. Snapping every piece of life then sharing with others, it's another joy of life. I believe a photo can tell a story, a story can tell a person's beliefs. Beauty of it.

Beauty of blogging too

Mask

2010-10-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

I'm having a busy weekend...

working + assignment + another assignment..

But, I mostly focus on working not because I'm so money-needed

it's because I'm merely physically tired...

like trying to stand for about 8 to 9 hours and doing nothing...

But then, I choose to talk to my working friends and of course going with my funny style...

and suddenly one of them spoke about mask (self-presentation)

and it reminded me something I'm used to be skilled in it before I choose to be real...

The reason I chose to be real because it makes me feel comfortable...

but in between it brought hurt to me because it lower down my defend wall and cheated by a best friend I always thought.

Still, I choose to be real.

Although reality is cruel enough to make people fight or flight and different self-presentation in particular circumstances is needed in order to survive.

Still, I choose to be real.

If I set a wall that how I treat people based on how they treat on me...

Try to think again, if everyone of us set a mind as what I set the whole world will be as cool as hi-bye friend existed. There is always an initiator to make thing start, so does a relationship. Be truthful and nice to people and importantly to ourselves, and people start looking for you but otherwise.

Choosing to be real doesn't mean that you have to critique people directly in front of others.

Taking care of other's feeling is how you taking care of your own feelings.

There is always a reason when someone appears in your life. It could be few second and brings big changes.

You will never know what is happening next in your life...

it's like life is short but meaningful...

perfection is imperfection

Hanging Leg Raises for fast Lower Abdominal Development.

2010-10-04T07:08:00.000-07:00

Best way to build lower abs!!!

Gotta try it tomorrow!!!

3 months! Will see!

2010-09-29T06:10:00.000-07:00

常常想东想西的我，满脑子充满了很多很多不同角度的想法，可是却不知道如何在语言上表达。

而今天有了另一套逍遥派的想法-人最终回到原点？由于本身长期处于低与高潮的平衡点，同时也体会到真正的平静，心灵也达到安宁。可是不甘于平凡的心态也同时间地抗议，矛盾也因此奇妙而产生。人最终回到原点？的想法令我联想到自给自足的生活。而为什么是一个问句呢？这也意味着世上无绝对的看法，否认与否决定于他人的看法。曾有一个想法对我印象深刻-人生的初二十年是无忧无虑地享受世界带来的惊喜，接着的三十五年便是为生活理想奋斗的岁月，至五十五更是剩下的晚年。。。人生短短，又何必执著地为人头纸流血，到头来人最终与大自然相依为命。。。这样的想法的确缺乏了推动力，可是这是事实。哪要如何用比较正面方式与传达也正是我一直想要的一门技巧。。。又如何使用“人最终回到原点”来产生美妙的旋律，好让人们往前起舞蹦跳。。。

Life can be easy if you think so...

Wonderfulness

2010-09-02T00:08:00.000-07:00

New semester starts

New Faces

New Knowledge

Still the same friends ever

Undoubtedly, God's love is everywhere...

Had me a dinner with a bunch of craziest friends...

Had me a wonderful holidays without loneliness but laughters...

Had me life experience that brings inspiration...

Had me truly knowing friendship and other relationship...

Every step in my life is memorable...

Every minute of my life is precious...

Every people in my life is more than memorable and precious...

Find a way to connect with my loved one...

Find a way to connect with friends around me...

God has me to walk with Him...

What I want to say is Amen to everything I have...

Need of Light

2010-07-20T03:29:00.000-07:00

I didn't blog for a long time...

What I have done then?

To be honest, I'm fighting with loneliness recently...

It just happens to hold my hand...

I start resisting...

even enjoying it...

because of one belief "what you resist will persist; what you befriend will transcend."

But from here, I'm struggling...and...fighting...

Self-conflict is one of my friends now...

I called this process as growth...

I believe everyone needs a breakthrough in every season of growth...

like this picture portrays how breakthrough is...

A light from dark...

No more coward

2010-07-09T07:14:00.000-07:00

I'm reflecting myself what I have done in this week and what I suppose to do for this week...

And I realized that I'm a coward...

I admit it...

I tell people to step out from their comfort zone

but in fact, I'm standing inside my comfort zone...

Such a coward...

Undeniably, I missed and skipped a lot of important things in 22 years...

and I denied the existence of the mistakes I made...

I'm gonna step out the coward zone by taking action to solve my unfinished businesses!!!

Pray for me if you read this post...

I'm gonna do God's a favor...

Driving with shadow, Feelings like Blues

2010-07-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

Do people get blue when they're getting tired?

And how do they usually deal with the blue?

I think there is something not right within myself...

perhaps "the someone"...

caffeine withdrawal effects?

It's impossible and it's only a random blue-ness and not even listed in the DSM-IV

This blue-ness always want me to give up something or someone...

But he asked not to and keep it up and don't do the same mistake again...

I so wish that I can transcend the blue when especially occurs at this particular timing...

This is one of my strongholds...I admitted...

There something I want to say...

but...

Can I create the flow for myself to follow?

I'm just a mellow fellow

You're completely defeated when you compare yourself with others around you.

Recalling

2010-07-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

Way back to the glory time in basketball, everyone clapped for his performance and his spirit at the basketball court. It's 4 to 5 years ago when there was a only little kid want to beat those tall guys at the basketball court.

This kid took more than 5 hours to train himself everyday just for defeating basketball giants.

He overcame all others' humiliation and turned it into stronger power to move forward.

In the end, he successfully stood firmly on the stage and playing games like playing a show with his tempo freely. The most accurate shooting and fastest player in the school but he was isolated once his ankle was sprained. At that time, he learned to be humble and pick up his own favorite basketball and started training his shooting. From that time, speed is a matter for him because of the injured ankle but his shooting styles were much different from last time and this was where the great 3 point shooter born. Undeniably, state players were scared by this little boy. Unfortunately, his basketball life is short, his injured ankle was getting worse and worse. He kept the pain for himself and continued fight for the team till one day. It was a cruel day for him that his ankle was twisted and he was abandoned outside the court. At that time, he lost faith to the team mates and left alone without looking back. He learned new thing-reality.

And, he decided to start new page of life.

Time flies, things change, we must change...

Feelings

2010-06-28T19:03:00.001-07:00

People usually take things for granted?

Especially happen in family?!

I'm kinda against it occurs in family but every one in my family is doing it like nobody business.

They say something or blame something without caring other's feelings...

and I tried one thing this morning, it's something like projection...

This morning, I wanted to read a book, so I sat down and read then my mom asked me to do scratching while reading and the reason is that " it's not good for you to sit down and read, you're OBESE!!!" she said. Then, I was a little bit upset then answer "you too." After that, she was scolding back like a machine gun non stop for about 10 minutes. I was laughing inside my heart and asked myself if I project the feelings to her.

When I'm recalling it, I pull myself out of the situation and look from different angles. It reminds me how my family communicate and work together and they always kinda expect you know this and that but in fact, I know nothing about what you want or else and take your stuff without informing till I scold. I'm thinking whether I'm allowed say something without caring your and others' feelings in a family. Possibly, due to my people oriented personality, I don't agree with this unless there are some stupid same mistakes done again and again.

Actually, there are many so-called family traditions in my family that I want to stop from my generation because I can imagine what will happen in my future family if I follow the "family traditions". From here you can see I'm a rule breaker.

Anyways, time flies, things change, human's mind changes? this is a very good question to leave to answer. thoughts shape behaviors or behaviors shape thoughts?

2010-06-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

"KL People are not GPS of KL"

I'm kinda like this...

There is a friend always remind me that don't take things for granted

especially family and friends...

But, there are many people doing the same thing again and again...

but her...

quite like her thinking style somehow...

At least she gave me an idea for life which makes my days with hopes and happiness...

2010-05-31T10:50:00.000-07:00

I underestimated them.

That's my fault.

2010-05-28T03:17:00.000-07:00

I hate looking at the screen of ATM machine that shows zero while I check my balance

Mother's Day Dinner

2010-05-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

Happy Family Dinner @ Star Village @ Kuchai Lama

It's Mother's Day~

My brother and I decided to get them for a dinner

and of course we paid the bill (Quite painful)

Dad (老爷) & Mom

Cute right?! She likes mushroom soup~

I don't know why

Here is my brother showing the ugly face~

he always like to act cool somehow~

My shy sis only allowed me to take photo of her hand...why ya?

Elder couple

Actually I wanted to take photo of all the food but they were too hungry...

so you know when people are hungry, they will react faster once the food comes...

I was very happy to have family dinner, cuz it rarely happens in my family...

hope everyday is either Mother's or Father's day... even though my wallet slowly empty

God, thank you for the dinner I wish to have^^

500 days of summer

2010-05-08T09:39:00.000-07:00

These few days, I have been watching many movies which I got them from my friend...

And I just finish watching 500 days of summer...

I like the way how it portray the expectation and reality at the same time...

It seems to reflect on my life experience

and reminded me that I always expect good things happen where it's opposite in reality...

In this four year, I have gone after some girls and the process seems similar in the movie where I expect she would do this and that when I did this and that...

In fact, I always live in my own expectation

That has an impact my life nowadays which I do not know how to differentiate intimate relationship and friendship or others...

Not to say "do not know how to differentiate", I'm just confused about relationship man and woman, that is why I go with my feelings...

Like my mom said "there is no way to looking girlfriend or soul partner, but you will meet the right one."

By meeting right one, I may be in 40s...(that's my concept)

Recently, my concept slowly assimilates to my mom's concept...but not there yet!!!

Still looking for the right one~

When she appears in front me?

God knows...I believe in Him

Show me the way please^^

Sien-ness

2010-05-05T23:13:00.001-07:00

When holidays come, I used to planning for working part time...

but the I only have 2 weeks holiday...

then due to the nowadays' market, events are getting lesser year by year...

Plus, who wants to hire people to work only for 2 weeks...

So, I'm thinking what can I do to self-improve...with low expenses

hmmm.....headache.....

I just cannot stand with staying at home and doing nothing....

Actually, there are many things to do...

How come I cannot think of?

of I only want to rest?

Wanna bang my head!!!

Too free to think so much...

Magical hand

2010-05-02T09:02:00.001-07:00

I suppose to say happy holiday...

Yea I'm having about 2 weeks holiday...

But what happened tonight was really refresh all my childhood memories with my family...

and they are not so happy memories...

Just because of my hand touching on my poor sister's head...

Just wondering, why other family can treat each other like friends and having fun at most of the time but mine...

Some reason, I don't like to talk about my parents not because I don't love them...

but love doesn't mean whatever mistakes they have done can be rationalized to be accepted...

It's so dilemmatic

Maybe the cultural influences? Trying to externalize so many times but it is not a cure...

I always tell myself to keep trying no matter how...

Can I ask a question to my parent?

I always want to ask them whether money is more important than the relationship within our family members.

It could be a very hard question for them I guess...

You know what!!!

I'm gonna stop this kind of parenting style for my next generation!!!

Light

2010-04-24T00:32:00.000-07:00

I was confused

and I turned my head up

I saw light

It gave me answer

and turn it into action

How wonderful it is...

Thank God!!!

Choice?!

2010-04-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

Anxious?!

because I choose to be anxious...?!

Stress?!

because this is the choice I make...?!

Tired?!

because I choose so...?!

All I want is to free myself from all of these emotions...

How?! Choose it?!

Protein Dietary

2010-04-13T22:09:00.000-07:00

In these few days, I got sick and no appetite most of the time...

Only drinking protein is to keep myself full...

So, all my meals are protein!!! Scary right!?

I'm just no appetite because I cannot taste any when I'm having flu!!! Sigh~

Hope it can make me lose weight effectively...

and recover faster!!!

p/s: Pray harder and harder always before sleep...

I'm sick but strong still

2010-04-12T07:34:00.000-07:00

Yea~I'm sick after that bloody boring clubbing night...ish!!!

Anyways, I still went to gym this morning!!!

I'm still strong because I slept for whole day yesterday!!! Amazing!!!

But, it's not the best part of today...

What make my day???

The Film Festival which done by Psychology of Film class!!!

AND PORK BURGER @ Tropicana!!!

For the film thingy, there were many inspiring films made by students and

I think they can be a professional actors/ actress (especially my friend-Val)...

Some of them were doing really great job for their production...

It's so amazing...!!!

Psychology students actually can do everything whatever is related to human being!!!

Some of the films made me cry a little in class

because I was trying so hard to hold my tears~

JUST TOO TOUCHING, CAN'T CONTROL!!!

On the other hand, FOOD is important to me especially TASTY FOOD!!!

There is a corner stall is selling PORK BURGER!!! Please trust your eyes what they see!!!

IT'S PORK BURGER!!!

It was the first time I eat pork burger and it's at LG floor @ Tropicana City Mall...

So sorry that I didn't take picture of it because I was too hungry^^

And one thing, the burger 100% doesn't have shared part and totally fresh!!!

This makes me hungry now!!! Suddenly think of HUMBLE CHEF!!!

OMG!!! I should change my BLOG NAME to BORN TO EAT!!!

p/s: Thank God. I had another great day^^

I'm not smart enough

2010-04-09T12:24:00.000-07:00

I was just back from clubbing and it is considered early to leave the club...

Just because it was a boring social event...

First thing, I went because of my buddy!!!

To accompany him with no complains....

With its reason, his "friend" birthday celebration and I know no one in the party!!!

Plus, the his friend's friends were like unfriendly in my eyes!!!

That's the horrible experience I had for tonight

and confirm that it's the last one paying rm50 for nothing just drinking the bloody black label!!!

Fortunately, I met my high school junior over there...

then made so-boring to little-boring situation...

Still, it's funny that observing those drunk people dancing with out of tempo!!!

Plus, some horny guys were trying to...(you know!!!)

Haiz...another rm50 is gone!!!!

Need to work next week to cover this stupid debt!!!

p/s: I realized that I'm so stupid enough to let my brain aside for 3 years since high school graduation. Still, devalue myself unconsciously these days!!! Can somebody wake me up to be a smart planner with full strategies!!!

It's time to FIGHT?

2010-04-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

Some of my friends told me that I'm in burn-out condition...

yea right....

I have been resting for 2 weeks...

or I could say I was numb for 2 weeks...due to some traumatic incidents?

Anyways, I had many beautiful days with my friends (Dionne, Kenneth, Val)!!!! Interestingly, Dionne WENT TO SUMMIT where she totally doesn't like ...HAHA...quite happy that Val and I were able to I grabbed her to Summit to shop around...

Still, I have to thank her for accompanying me to shop (I usually shop alone) and I bought a pair shoes with 50% discount. On that day, we were like having food marathon as 3 meals within 6 hours!!! Seriously, I was full like a fool. Firstly, we ate at Uncle John, Summit at about 5pm then Hokkien Porridge in SS14 at about 9pm. Last station, it was in Humble Chef in PBD where opposite Mcd. For Hokkien Porridge, it was the first with reasonable price and memorable taste (rm13 per person with 5-6 dishes), because Hokkien Porridge is expensive in KL areas and the porridge is watery like cook with no rice. Last round for food marathon, Humble Chef generously serves the cheapest spaghetti and lamb pita ever in my opinion. It was a great supper especially the lamb pita make my night^^

I wish I can go back to Humble Chef and tried another food. Besides the food, Humble Chef "restaurant" is a some kind of truck which the kitchen is the back and the place they set is on the flyover where the customers can enjoy the highway view with tasty lamb pita^o^ I think it's a good place for couple as well. Hoho...

Unfortunately, we didn't take some pictures but all the pictures are in my head now and no one can steal it^^ I so wish I can get a camera to capture all the memorable days. For now, I have to get ready for final exam with fuel.

Dionne!!! This is my dream car yo^^ thx for reminding my dream car. It's my motivation^^

Thank God for giving me such beautiful days. I knew that you never give up me...

In Jesus name, I say AMEN!!!^^

2010-04-02T08:33:00.001-07:00

Boring Friday, it just an unproductive day.

I used to read when I'm free...

but it becomes lesser when I step into college life...

I had a long talk with my buddy who also loves reading...

but he's not a book worm.

He told many things I used to do especially the way of thinking...

and I found him like a mirror of me

Diverse thinking styles, creative ideas when I was in high school time.

I suddenly took a book from a rack which is full of dust on top

and the book named

(Most of the persuading skills I used are learnt from this book)

and started to read it slowly

realized that my laziness stops my brain functioning for long time ago.

Reason being, I'm getting lazy to think in detail because of learnt helplessness?

It reminds of the main concept of Reality Therapy- Choice theory...

It is a choice I make whether I'm learnt helplessness or thinking without thinking.

If it is a choice, I will have to make a move

First thing, language (English) is a big barrier currently

Because I think I have used many wrong words to express what I really mean...

especially some adjectives and limited vocabs in my head...

This could be the factor that turn a talkative guy into seemingly cool guy...

Please correct me when I speak wrongly!!!

Happy

2010-03-29T00:36:00.000-07:00

Opz....today is Monday!!!

Tomorrow will be Tuesday!!! (like nobody knows!!)

It will be a good day for cooking!!!

Because it will be a cooking day with my friends^^

Maybe

I'm going to make some salmon starters?!

I think I know how to make it since I'm working for a catering company as a part-timer

Hope the recipe is still in my head

so excited to try it out tomorrow....

Here I come!!!

Frustration

2010-03-23T08:35:00.001-07:00

I don't know why bad things keep on happen on me? Or I should say I mess up my time more often for this semester? I'm quite frustrated and do not know how to release it.Frustrated about my thesis that I have missed out the presentation due to my partner's wrong information and lost 30%. And I'm so worried about my future somehow...that I didn't feel this way ever till now.

Could it be the thesis make me down all the way till now? Should I blame him? I knew our report will be very superficial for the lit review and theories, then I was fully prepared for the presentation, but it was over.

Another thing is that, I suddenly think whether psychology is really what I want. In year 3, it's so late that half a year to go to re-consider the course I'm finishing. is that an unnecessary pressure for now? I think I have to see counselor to solve my problems. it isn't good to be ignored this way...

I hope I can recover as soon as possible to stand up. I wish there are many things waiting for me to achieve and gain!!! There always have if I want

Something

2010-03-21T02:43:00.000-07:00

Something is still missing that I need it so much!!

I have been looking for it since 3 years ago...

Without it, I'm just so dry and my life is just colorless...

And, I know what is the thing I'm looking for

It's passion like getting up and go...

PASSION

Friendship

2010-03-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

Before writing this blog...

I was doing counseling assignment which talking about friendship issues...

What stop me from doing the assignment?

It is explanation of friendship...

I realized that I do not know how to explain it and

I used to have a bunch of best friends, so-call brothers...

and because of some issues I decided to give up them...

In college, I also used to have a best friend and so-call brother...

but this time I tried to save it...

still feel cheated and forcing myself to forget it...

what is friendship?

I have a lot of friends but in different categories...

basketball teammates, study group, church friends, business partners but...

not as close as best friend...

sometimes, i dislike feeling of being alone but I enjoy it sometimes....

hmmmm.....is that my problem?

maybe misperception bring me wrong mindset or something else?

As Gestalt theory said, focus here and now....

so I have to go back and focus on my assignment now!!!

bye~

Steady vs Unsteady (private speech)

2010-03-15T06:14:00.000-07:00

I used to be steady in my friends' eyes...

Yes, I am

but I wan to be unsteady...

can I?

Steady, just because I don't always show anger or any negative emotions?

Steady, just because I keep every sad, angry stuff?

I'm in blue recently...

I'm frustrated recently...

Everything just doesn't go smooth recently...

Negative events bring negative emotions...

negative emotions lead to mis-perception...

it turns out more negative emotions...

it's like a snow ball effect...

the negative emotions keep rolling to be more negative...

such a negative post I have just done...

Will it be the last emo post for me?

Who likes negative stuff???

......

ChileQuake

2010-02-27T18:04:00.000-08:00

Surprisingly, I woke up at 9am by dad talking loudly about a news this morning!!!

I was shock by this news which is about earthquake in Chile located in South-America.

It was 8.8 level of earthquake and about 200 people dead in this incident...

And, it will bring tsunami that affects New Zealand, Australia, Philippines, etc

Thanks god that US is ready to help Chile Obama said.

Referring to the website to get more detail: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/8540289.stm

Again, it reminds me about the 2012 movie that there will be the end of world at that moment...

I start to believe after I watching the movie and did some researches about Mayan's myth. Plus, many disasters being reported since last year. This is why I rather do something but doing nothing to get things done or else it will be too late. I have asked myself what do you want to do if the 2012 myth is true...

Live like were dying

Make your life more wonderful by now

and no time for hesitation

Something for nothing?

2010-02-26T08:27:00.000-08:00

There are many places I want to go and travel...

and what stops me all this while...

I have been indeed thinking about it and

wondering how to solve it...

What is my motor behind the motivation?

Am I still staying in the comfort zone, so that I have nothing to strike for?

Financial Achievement is the priority?

what else other than financial achievement I want?

I'm writing this because I don't like the feeling of staying at home for doing nothing. I feel like must doing something when I have nothing to do or I do not know what I need to do. It becomes frequent recently that staying for doing nothing and still some concerns of unfinished works. Am I a workaholic? I love enjoying every after moment that I have done something significantly. In college life, I have not done any significant that can bring me higher level of thought. This what makes me so concern and my college life is finishing soon in end of this year.

Must do something!!!

Beautiful Thinker

2010-02-12T00:11:00.000-08:00

I just finish reading a chapter- Be a Beautiful Thinker

Robin Sharma said that "Dream big and your behavior will follow but think small you will play small". What a brilliant words that address the message clearly to me and this is how a beautiful thinker's thought.

"You will never go any higher than your thought."

Yes, I agree that your every action and behavior is shaped by your thoughts. And this reminds me that I used to give a thought every morning when I get up from bed as in smiling to myself through the mirror and tell myself I'm looking good today. In fact, it helped me a lot to get through the hardest period I had before. Plus, it give hope to me in every walk.

How do you think that you will get what you have expected?

It did appear some times in my life and I also heard there is an opposite outcome as you expected. That's the matter of thoughts.

Thoughts -> Behaviors & Actions -> Confidence & Reality

Smile to yourself everyday no matter what you have gone through

People do good things to good people &

What flows in your mind moves your soul.

Year of the Tiger

2010-02-08T04:42:00.000-08:00

YoYo~~!!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Dye to a brand new year of tiger, I hope that I'm energetic like a tiger in this year!!!

Non-stop working on some of my unfinished stuff...

For examples...

Relationship?

Study?

Body Building?

Music?

It seems a lot things need to be done in this year...

I'm quite exciting about this year with hugging hopes to get a break through!!!

I need a BREAK THROUGH!!!!!!

2010-01-17T03:06:00.000-08:00

When I said to myself that I'm born to change, in fact, I want to motivate myself that everything I face is changing all the time and I have to accept it and go with the flow confidently...

I felt so tired these few days that helping a person who doesn't help him or herself. What on earth makes he or she take my offer...

and I'm confused whether I'm always the one who move too fast that makes me feel I'm always the only one moving...

Somehow I'm feel lonely and slowly become aimless in term of what I want...

I went to a talk and a man share one thing with us "Success is an open book test." and his name is Mike Ray...

I always have a book with me and I need it when I'm lost...

Questioning myself, why you're always lost...I have no answer all the time

"Go with the flow, Matthew!!!" I said to myself all the time

A small talk with Multi-millionaire

2010-01-05T09:40:00.000-08:00

You might hear someone's dad or uncle is millionaire...

You might see how they enjoy their life...

You might have chance to meet them but miss...

Have you ever talked to a multi-millionaire so far...

I'm not showing off that I have talked to a multi-millionaire...

but tonight...

I'm proud of what he has truly taught me how to do business and what kind of life you want...

He said : " what type of car you drive, how fast you can reach, determines how far you can go..."

it's really inspired me that choosing a right company, right timing, right team, and right coach are indeed key factors to succeed. More importantly, timing is the first and most key because time waits no one.

The ever first gold in life, it always involves highest spirit, effort, and energy to be achieved. After all the tougher periods, I believe that we will be standing at a higher point to view the world especially the mindset is differently changed and view things in many angles. I may call it flow...

I can feel the engine getting hot now...do you? my friends...

I'm here to share just a little but I can promise you will have a chance to meet him if you want to have a different lifestyle...Believe yourself

Nikon D3000

2009-12-25T22:28:00.000-08:00

I always wish I can have a SLR camera

take photos where I have been...

Due to my poor memory,

I need camera indeed to capture the feelings within people and the places I have been...

I believe that photos can tell a vivid story...

and I'm always a storyteller (sharing is caring...^^)

Here is the one I hope to get Nikon D3000

It has guide mode to guide the beginner like me...

and 10 mega pixel, 11 auto focus system, 3 inches screen size, 100-1600 ISO

and the price is about 2k...

When I can get this...???

It will be my next target...

ugly truth

2009-12-18T08:21:00.002-08:00

I was wondering and thinking what I have been learning from psychology

and a light suddenly came out in my mind that

truth is the word was showing in my head

and are there any relations what I learn...?

Yes, there is

Finding truths, it is what I learn so far from psychology that

tracking origin causes and understand the truth...

Truth is always ugly somehow it's undesirable in people mind

most of the time, people tend to intellectualize bad thing that

seems to be just better and positive

but

is that true?

Truth, fight or flight is the solution of facing it...

There is no morally right or wrong between fight and flight in my point of view

what do you think?

Last Paper

2009-12-15T00:18:00.000-08:00

I/O Psychology was the final paper for today and it really was a hell in the exam hall that keeping flipping my textbook and few of my printed journals to get the information for the 4 essays...

I had more than enough information but limited time not allowed me to finish the paper,and the worst thing was that I find lots of relevant journals that is out of textbook hope to get better result, but it gave me an empty hope that I only use 2 out of 11 journals I had printed and printing cost is about RM12!!! Most of the question were covered by textbook, is totally not what I expected from my lecturer who always makes us think out of the box....

Anyways, I finished my complains...Supposedly, I feel relief and happy simply because I already finished my last paper and going to have my holiday. But, I'm not in that mood now and I don't see I have put full effort on the paper even though I spent long time on studying it. This thinking keeps showing in my head while I was driving home and wondering why I'm in some kind of emptiness feeling after the exam...

Could it be that most of my course mates still have one paper to go on this Thursday, and I'm the only one who is free and nowhere to go with? Or the performance of the exam affects my mood? At this moment, what I always do when I'm lost and nowhere to go, is to get answers my favorite book by randomly flipping the book and read.
Here is the title, Burn the Extra 1 Percent... and this short article inspires me immediately by "The last 1 percent most people keep in reserve is the extra champions have to courage to burn." This reminded me the preparation of exam of mine that I did put most of the effort on it but all...and this is why I don't have the feeling to say "I give it my all, I did the best." and this made me dissatisfied after the exam.

Plus, the opportunity for outright greatness comes at the every moment that ordinary people give up, this is what I have to remember it heart by heart especially in dealing with my thesis which due on 3rd week of next semester...

Here I go for my next target- THESIS 1, I'm going to lighten my inner fire.

Let's fire up!!!

2009-12-12T17:59:00.000-08:00

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Red Light

2009-12-12T04:33:00.000-08:00

There is a signal for my body--red light

Telling me that my body reached a limited point...

It's time to rest, my body and mind...

It was a tougher time for me doing 3 previous papers while having heavy sick...

my nose is getting drier because of non stop blowing my nose these days...

especially during exam...

I was not busy writing on my paper, but blowing my nose...

Hope to get soon well...

one more paper left and it's the hardest paper on next Tuesday...

I didn't study at all today!!! (the medicine too strong)

HELP HELP!!!

Girl~~

2009-12-05T10:31:00.000-08:00

Just back from work an hour ago...

Catering, this is the work that make me late...

But, I met a girl, her bridge of nose is very beautiful unlike the typical Asian kind of nose...

And a little bit chubby, overall, she's my type!!! hahaha...

Unfortunately, she has boyfriend (too bad for me),

Still I had a chance to drop her back to her hostel...

we had a very nice chat in the car I guess^^...

haha....somebody starts dreaming...

Don't just live in your own world...

somehow, exam reminds me to concentrate, keep the mindset...

Alright, self-driven but avoidance instead...

Girls~~~they are so interesting for me!!!

Nothing

2009-11-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

Nothing, you may ask is the content similar as the previous post...?

Although the title is similar as Nothing or No thing...

It's different meaning for what I wan to express...

In my today's world, nothing means unproductive

meaning done nothing

see nothing

gain nothing

talk nothing

......

Nothing gain when you are seeing on the screen with doing nothing and thinking nothing

nothing can be something but still nothing...

What do you get from nothing?

nothing much I can address

Nothing can be pointless and meaningless

Can you see something from me?

Nothing or No thing

2009-11-22T07:09:00.000-08:00

As the picture shown, it's the title for today's post. Nothing, what comes to your mind when you first see it? No Thing or Nothing? Anyways, it's the still the same meaning...

Nothing, this is what I can say for today's productivity- nothing I have done today!!! Although it's Sunday today, it's not an excuse to do nothing and at least do something!!! It makes me feeling guilty...

Therefore, I must fully use my time on the coming weekdays, then I only have an excuse to rest on weekend...The more time I rest, the lazier I am...It sounds like a workaholic though!!!

One more assignment and thesis on week 14!!! I must stick with my plan, otherwise my Thailand trip becomes bubble flying in th sky and slowly disappear from my eyes!!!

Well, it's time to sleep early to get more energy for tomorrow!!! I'm coming TOMORROW!!

2009-11-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

Finally, I/O report was done 2 days ago....

It was a nightmare that driving me to crazy!!!

In progress of I/O report, I had gotten fever for few times,

one was high fever, scary experience (first time)...

Overall of the assignment, it cost about RM300 plus...

the most expensive assignment I had

Now, I totally forget about past experience (I/O assignment)...

and focus on other assignments (3 of them)...

2 are from group process and another is career guidance integrative report...

after all the assignments, final exam will be coming soon...

I won't be having holiday, because of the thesis 1...

such a college life...

I want travelling by the way...

who can go with me???

I'm badly wishing I can meet a right person that always travelling with me...

Learnt Helplessness

2009-10-24T11:09:00.000-07:00

Again...

I already used to my exam result...

Damn it!!!

Should see a counselor...

Lost

2009-10-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

Touching Song I had never ever heard before....

I can't believe it's over

I watched the whole thing fall

And I never saw the right man was on the wall

If I'd only knew

Days were slipping past

That the good things never last

That you were crying

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain

And the rain turned into tears upon your face

I hardly recognized the girl you are today

And god I hope it's not too late

It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone

I'm always there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through

Cause when you feel like you\'re done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When your worlds crashing down

And you can't bear to fall

I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy

It can tear your soul apart

It can make you feel like you've gone crazy

But you're not

Things have seem to changed

There's one thing that's still the same

In my heart you have remained

And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone

And I am there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through

'Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When the worlds crashing down

And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost

小波动与大波动

2009-10-19T01:39:00.000-07:00

怎样的人能够让你有小波动的心跳？

那怎样的人又让你有大波动呢？

已经好久没有大波动了。。。

小波动就一堆。。。

大波动，你在哪里？？？

老子常主张顺其自然。。。

随缘吧。。。

哈哈哈~

2009-10-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time that something hidden fire in my body and it's always trying to drive me to a crazy mode and I always suppress it without any reasonable reason. I'm wondering whether it is my inner self want to push me to further steps and what is the reason I stop it.

Sine there is no reason, and why don't just let it be dominant and go for crazy...

"No great life was ever built on a foundation of excuses. So stop making them."

I think I was afraid of changes, rejection, unfamiliar incidents...

Because of that I started making excuses and always thought that I'm at the higher level of the building to see things differently from others, but I realized that I'm wrong all the way. Making excuses doesn't make you live high...it's just a self-defense and a seemingly beautiful lie on myself.

Too ironically, I always told my friends that to do what you want to do, to be what you want to be. But, it's hardly to happen on myself and I hardly to present my real self in front of others.

"To be what you want to be..." Damn it! Too ironic! I have to do something now!

NEVER EVER LIE TO YOURSELF

Mahjong Marathon!!!

2009-10-17T09:18:00.000-07:00

This time and my first time that I play mahjong till vomit...

We started playing at Friday night (about 12am till 6am)...

Then it finally ended and had a good sleep (till Saturday, 2pm)...

then....no choice....

started another round at about 330pm....

and ended it by 1130pm....

OMG...

Super tired and my head is damn heavy now

Gosh...

Last day for Mid Term

2009-10-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

Last day, my mid term exams were finished....

but...

Usually, as a college student, they will have lots of plans after exams even for the last day...

but...

I don't have this kind feeling that my exams are over...

maybe...

I only had 2 papers and it seemed quite easy... technically, I'm not sure whether it's simple...

because...

I only took 2 days to study 2 papers...

so...

you can see how much effort I had on my papers...

I need a target as a driver to fly me to the moon...

I need motivation to fasten up my steps...

I need stamina to stay up most of the time...

I need...

2009-10-11T06:44:00.001-07:00

Not again~~

I wish it will be tough in the future and recover as fast as possible...

Cuz, I have many miles to go and I need your company till the end of day....

Remember?! we have been fighting together since we were born...

Starting from crawling then walking...and you helped me to stand up...

Nowadays, I can stand firmly because of you, both of you...

I love you, be tough and recover soon!!!

The best memory I have never had

2009-10-05T02:09:00.000-07:00

As you see the title of this blog, do you think that I really have a very good memory....

You will know if you're my friends...

why said so...

I TOTALLY FORGOT MY FRIEND'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY LAST NIGHT!!!

GOSH!!!

What happen to me??? How can I forget it???

To be frank, my memory is like dysfunction recently...

It could be caused by lack of sleep and rest or too relax and no stress???

Mid term exams are coming soon and I'm feeling nothing....

is it one of the symptom of learned helplessness???

or I'm already immune...

COME ON!!!

GET UP!!!

MORNING!!!

COME BACK LOOOOOO!!!!

2009-09-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

人与人之间也需要平衡。。。

即，自身。。。

Life is SHORT but wonderful...

2009-09-29T02:50:00.000-07:00

"Life is short but wonderful..."

This is kind of common slogan I think everyone knows

and I'm wondering how short the life is in this sentence...?!

For me, life is really short as in there are many things happen in next second or minute, but saying how long you can live.

There is something happen to my friend's dad...

Just a hour time without any messages and went away...

Can I call it such as a life?

I'm not being pessimistic, just had never ever happened to me before and I can feel with her deeply losing a closest person forever...

Just assuming that I can only live till 50 and I now only have 29 years to go...

What should I do now???

And always how???

2009-09-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

My days are like holiday now even though new sem started for weeks...

I know that there are many works need to be done, but still in holiday mode because of the 2 days Raya holiday made me more into holiday mode....

The laziness keeps following behind me...

And the personality test we had it in career guidance class, actually makes my life become more relaxing...CUZ I'm R (Relational) type of personality, I call it relaxing type of personality.

I admitted that I'm kinda relaxed person and always try to get high achievement. It sounds weird that a relaxed person wanna get better result and it doesn't make sense somehow.

I just realized that I will be working on this coming Sunday, and I suppose to go church on that day...and I skip again!!!

My life is going to be mess soon if I still in a relaxing holiday mode!!!

I need to hand up a proposal of part of selection by tomorrow night, and so far, I haven't started yet...and the thing is that most of my group members are quite anal type of personality which means impatient on doing something and try the best to finish it short time and it's totally opposite of me...anyhow, I'm one of the group members, have to compromise a little bit to fit in...

Besides, I have been practicing guitar almost 2 hours everyday since last week. Suddenly, I find it interesting and kinda having fun with guitar like simply playing it at everywhere around my house...kinda relaxing lifestyle I have recently!!! For sure that, it is one of my dreams to be a pub singer in around beach areas. I can sing with my guitar while just walking on the street beside the beach and kind of enjoyable lifestyle... just like Jason Mraz (My Favorite Singer).

wow....love this kind of lifestyle..haha

Still dreaming, it's good to dream and it's free of charge by the way^^

So why don't you try it!!??

2009-09-12T04:21:00.000-07:00

If a person who lives in a life which is full of challenges, he or she will vigorously keep fighting...

What if the person was pull into a situation or living style which is peaceful and relax, what the person will be?

I believe that people who love challenges, are able to adjust themselves rapidly in different circumstances...

Once the person adjust himself or herself to fit the peaceful and secure life, is he or she able to fight like before when he or she was placed back to challenging life...?

Time is the key, but duration is the matter. It does matter in realistic world...

How does the person can recover in a short time to face the challenges again?

Scream like a Spartan? Fight like a Spartan?

300 is my favorite movie although it's very aggressive that most of the psychologists don't encourage...

"Answers are the past, Abilities are the future..."

火

2009-09-09T06:42:00.000-07:00

心中好像有一团猛火想要爆发出来的感觉。。。

闷在心中好久好久了。。。

想爆又爆不出。。。

感觉有点像便秘。。。

最讨厌这种感觉。。。

他奶的！！！

Happy 21st Birthday To Matthew

2009-09-02T09:59:00.000-07:00

Tonight, it was really a memorable night I have never had before...

My friends- Bee, Chee Yan, Serene, Ah Yong, Hui Chi, Yek Wei, John and Tim...

Thank you very much for the dinner, surprise and the kisses^^

I don't know what to say...

It was very touch and try hard to act tough not to cry...haha...sounds stupid!!!

I enjoy my college life becuz of all of you...

Whoever I met, thx and glad to know them...

Life is short but wonderful...

Finally, I'm 21 now^^...

it makes me feel like it's time to start my journey...

In fact, it's really a time to start...

Plan the 1st step of my career...

Goals and Sub-goals...

My right person^^....haha

Anyways, I wish all of friends have a wonderful life^^

That's what money for...

2009-09-01T02:37:00.000-07:00

Today....

Woke up at 630am!!! Cuz I had to bring my popo to Pudu market to buy something...

There were about 10 kg stuff on my hands...plus it was raining...

My cute popo still wana buy meatballs...although I love eating it, but I can see all the ways I can walk were totally disgusting and I was wearing slippers...and the place smell was like BULL SHIT!!!

That's fine with me cuz we can finish it sooner and went home sleep again...

Sleeping till about 1pm...

Feeling like going gym...

About 230pm reached Midvalley...then started my training...

During training, there was a uncle beside me and he did the wrong way for the abdominal part...

I definitely taught him the right way and we started a few conversation and he said one thing that inspired me suddenly....

Basically, he's retired for years and he quite enjoys his late life and i can see that he quite concerns about healthy...

This cute uncle told me that retired people must enjoy their retirement life, THIS IS WHAT MONEY FOR...

I was wondering what make him say this words...

What he experienced before...

Earning and then spend it...

Spending it doesn't mean that buying something like materialism...

For me, it could be invest on something like share, houses and others that invest money to make more money...

"This is what money for..." told me that money is really a external thing that we can use our creativity to earn once it is spent...

And, money is not really a big deal although it seems to be...

The big factor that determines how much you can earn is FINANCIAL IQ...

This is what I want^^

2009-08-31T04:21:00.000-07:00

Today is 31st of August, and it's very important day for for Malaysians...Merdeka!!!

For me, It's just a usual day...it sounds like I'm not proud of my country.

In fact, I only dislike the government in this country and there's nothing I can do for it unless I'm the boss of them..haha!!! whatever~

Today is the last day of my holiday too...

I'm kinda excited that another new sem is going to start, and there are many challenges are waiting for me...

Besides academic stuff, there is another thing bothering me these 2 days. And It is something like when I started doing Synergy worldwide as crossing out my comfort zone. Frankly, it's about network marketing which I was accidentally invited to a business talk by a girl's friend and I curiously accepted the invitation. Initially, It was about the finger prints that can indicate your personalities. Therefore, as a psychology student, it's very interesting stuff to learn and study and I couldn't say the curiousity kills the cat but save a cat...?

One taiwanese who is the master of finger prints teller, his student took my hands and seriously look and catergorize my finger prints. As I know, palm prints are always changing but I'm not about finger prints whether they are unique due to our DNA. Continue with my type of finger prints, the master explained that I'm a very cool and serious when I'm in a strange place or meeting with strangers but in fact, I'm a very very open minded and "crazy" inside my heart. When I'm facing strangers and unfamiliar places, my observation will highly increase and analyze everything to get prepared, make me sound like a hunter (isnt it good?). Once people mix with me for certain time, I'll totally open my heart and become super approachable...

To make a story short, I have a very high efficiency but there is a difficulty in making decision as in keep shaking and not sure or too many infor that hardly make a decision and it would take a long time to process, therefore this is the big weakness in my future as he said to me. Moreover, he said that I'm a totally completely a marketing person who can learn things fast enough to improve and my creativity will always help me in business career.

So, as you are my friends, how do you think about my finger prints' indication? How many percentage you guys think that it's true? I have my answer for sure...

Subsequently, there is the business talk started. Monavie- it's a US company which products mainly focus on healthy, anti-aging and others. As I know from the talk, this company will be open the first branch in Asia, Malaysia. And the finger prints master is the person who brings this business to Taiwan and now is Malaysia. The first thing came to me is that, I could be the top 20 or 30 persons under his line. Will you think it better than joining in half way when the company is growing? It could be my another big challenge...

I'm always wondering that I hardly make things complicated but why this decision takes me long time to think? I always ask myself are there anything you worry about? The answer is always NO...

Confusing myself...I think I need guidance!!!

Supposed to be happy rite?

2009-08-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

If you wana go after a potential partner, the process would be happy and positve...??

I'm wondering if it's the other way, will it be considering admiring or going after a person?

In fact, It's just a simple thing and "no ask, no get" concept only?

isnt it easier to talk rather than doing it in a realistic way?

Or the oppsite way?

Btw....I'm emo+ing now....ish!!!

Mission Accomplished^^

2009-08-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

7.00pm, 23th of August, Mission of 30 famine was officially accomplished.

Thx Robin Sharma for the advices " Answers are about the past, Abilities are about the future".

I really fully utilize my holiday and enjoy organizing event. For sure that there were something more than organinzing this event which is knowing a lot of crazy friends...this is the first time I met so many of them. Besides that, I have learnt more about the meaning of letting go and picking up in my thoughts. That's wonderful although I still think that the stuff I do is still not good enough and there are still some improvement can be done.

Since everything is over, answers and abilities definitely will bring me to next step closer to success.

Anyways, I need some pictures of 30 famine. Otherwise, my blog will be boring without a single picture. Haha!!

Sooner...

2009-08-21T08:55:00.000-07:00

"No Ask, No Get"

What I want is a wish....

Asking a wish, then get it to be true...

How do you think?

Can I call it as a life?

Such a life!!!

Smilling everyday that brings hopes to yourself and others...

Just a Wish

2009-08-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

Can I have a joyful and peaceful family?

Brilliant Words

2009-08-13T03:42:00.000-07:00

Something just inspired me just like enlighten my another side of world!!!

"Answers are about the past, ABILITIES ARE ABOUT THE FUTURE."

These brilliant words are taken from Robert T. Kiyosaki's book calls Increase Your Financial IQ.

I always want to get answers for problems, but he changed my mind that once you get the answer, do you have the ability to solve the current problems and next coming problems. However, I don't mean that answer is not important just like money isn't the most important in our life. We still need answers for certain problems and ability helps us to move forward and even faster. Ability, it can be strengthen and improved to solve higher levels of problems. The problems could be finance, relationship, social connection, businesses and others.

ABILITIES, it's forever power, mental or physical to do something in life...

He really enlightens my another side of world...enlightens my life as well.

30 Famine Training in HELP

2009-08-08T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today, I just need one word to describe the training- MESS!!!

I had my Mcd breakfast at 815am...

A phone call made me rush to KDP A for the training...

I thought I can continue enjoy my coffee...mana tau!!!

The training officially started at 930am...

Almost everything in last minute especially the venue layout (just be informed yesterday)...

In fact, I just have one important thing to bried the group leaders-HEADCOUNT

After that, I brought them to main block and briefly explain the purposes for each venue...

nothing much...just no mood to entertain them although they seemed very bored,

so I just finished my job then back to KDP A to get my logistic volunteers.

Lunch time 1230pm to 130pm...

Return to KDP A, it's time to brief volunteers, but I only need some of them which 8 of 30 volunteers cuz another half of them didnt show up and program team needs more people to run their games, so......circumscript.....

Luckily, Leng Keat was there to entertain the rest of volunteers...he helped a lot today and I just know that he's trained by Toastmaster...and his public speaking is spontaneously perfect!!!

Same thing as group leaders, 8 of them were brought to main block to brief them in different catergories. And my briefing session was done early, then I just fooling around in KDP A with HuiChi (Chinese Camp Leader)...We took a lot photos....dun know why!!!

To conclude....

Throughout the whole day training...

It's very unproductive...

It's totaly out of my expectation...

I think I need to adjust my mindset on my work...

First, focusing on security team for the emergency plan...

Try to imagine, more than 700 people stay in HELP Main Campus (lower and upper foyer)...

There is always a hope...

Can you see that?

I saw it and it's with me now^^

p/s: There are many photos you can get it from fb...lazy to upload photos and it takes very long.

A Band

2009-08-04T10:26:00.000-07:00

Start forming a band seems "easy" but...interesting^^

When it comes to modify a song and sing it, it's kinda hard and many discussion about which pattern we need to put in ending or else.

As a singer, it's not a easy job as well!!!

Sometimes, it has to be spontaneuos to adjust the tone, the volume and others during the performance in my opinion. And singing or playing a band is not a formula that follows steps by steps, but artistic....^^

To be honest, this is the first time that I sing with a band, it's kinda cool!!!

And I have a great experience with them...

So far, we have 2 practices in FTC, it's a church full of equiment as in those instruments and sounds system.

Now, I'm really thinking of getting a band...

Maybe....

One day....

You will see us in

TV shows

Waking up at 2pm!!!

2009-08-02T01:00:00.000-07:00

Suprisingly, I woke up at 2pm!!!

This is what I won't ever wake up at this time, cuz I think it's wasting my time!!!

However, I did wake up at 2pm today (Sunday), it could be I have been busy that sleep late and wake up early like yesterday's event. Psychology Challenge Day, It's some kind of competition of psychology that whoever get into top 3, they will be rewarded scholarship at least 16k!!!

Only one participant that grabbed my attention on that day, although I was like all the way sleepy (reached there by 8am) and her name is Millie Ong if I'm not mistaken. There were 3 rounds of MCQs and she almost got full marks, I could see her future at that moment. Especially, during her presentation, her answers were short but precise. I believe that she amazed all the psychology helpers at that time. And, most of us already knew the result of 1st prize will be her. Finally, she got 64k scholarship which is for foundation course and 3 years course in any of HELP courses.

Besides that, I had my gathering after that event and I went home 1st to get prepare then immmetiately rush to the garthering. You can guess how tired I am...All the way from 7am something till 1am midnight...I can say that I'm no longer a ironman that time passes, I need a healthy life...haha!!!

p/s: Going Gym Tomorrow Morning!!! My target is getting closer by day to day^^

Random

2009-07-29T19:58:00.000-07:00

Hey there^^

I just found that I love one of my philosophy so call Flexible Philosophy!!!

Haha!!!

开怀大笑，你我跟着 Xiao (Hokkien)!!! Haha

2009-07-29T09:34:00.001-07:00

Wednesday, General meeting for 30 hours Famine Camp...

I think I'm not well prepared for today's meeting, cuz I forgot to drop down most of the things in my laptop...and I sponteneously present the infor on the spot and solve on the spot!!!

Still, blur...ish!!! I really need to improve my expression as well as English-speaking...

Anyways, the logistic stuff is on the track now and basically what they have reminded me I already note down in laptop last nite, still thank them for reminding me again^^

Besides that, I found one interesting thing is that, my friend has a similar past experience as mine. She reminded me that the mindset and personalities when I was studying in high school. As in school time, I used to have a best group of friends who are always hanging out, doing stuff together, but shockly I was boycotted because of some silly and childish reasons. At that time, I was quite care about others' opinions on me and it made my life stressful but this incidence changed my life. To be frank, I have to thank them again that it changes the way I view myself and others.

To conclude, one mindset I gain is so called So What mindset^^.

WOW!!! So What!?

2009-07-27T07:16:00.000-07:00

What a semangat day....

Can you imagine, me, Matthew Ma, woke up at 630am and prepare to California fitness (but over slept again). And then I was the first customer for them to sign up as a member (costs me RM311++, wana cry).

As within this month, I really spent a lot, and really need to spend it wisely le....

Back to the training, I focused on my upper body which is easier to build up and they are core mucles as well. Since it's easier to train, I did many sets and reps for different mucles. FINALLY, all of upper body mucles are painful...

Nvm....my target is closer now.....keep going...

woohoo!!!

2009-07-25T00:44:00.000-07:00

You know what...Doing exercise is making me fresh and even more energetic!!!

Today, I played badminton with my college friends, one of them named leong who was a state player, he really has the patient to teach us...and we sweat so much which is good for health. Haha...I'm back home at about 3.30pm, and I have to reach my church by 5pm!!!

WOW...no doubt, today is a very good day for me^^ However, I spent almost 50 today coz of buying the one set of shuttlecock for my sister, haiz....mana tau it costs rm40....sakitnya...

Anways, it's fun to do exercise and I'm thinking of joining California Fitness Center, cuz I'm really free in this holiday, I think It's time to train and build my body up...look more masculine!!! HAHA~~MASCULINE

"总结报告" cited as Rebecca Lam, 2009

2009-07-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

Holiday mode...

But it's not what I expect, cuz...

there have something happen that needs my help...

No more trips, but it's my willingness to help...

Only getting part time jobs to fill up my empty time for weeks,

giving tuition recently, and

having fun with my friend who was born almost same time with me...

I see her as my reflection somehow...funny as well

So far, I have no plan for holiday...it's weird, unlike me...

and I don't like too...

Need to do something productive...

Still, Planning...

To Be Continue....

My Day in Starbucks

2009-06-30T09:20:00.000-07:00

Chapter 14 Families- the chapter I was studying in SS2 Starbucks today for psy 203 final exam!!!

Interestingly, there was a family sit behind us and the parents play their kid while doing their work. At that time, it reminded me what I'm studying and they really did a good job on children rearing. First of all, the thing impressed me is that the kid is playing the laptop and see something cool from maybe website to others and tell his dad that "Dad, you see, it's cool..." and the dad reply emotionally "Wow!! Awesome!!". Actually, the dad was looking at his laptop screen and doing his work at the same time, it's funny actually. In this family, I can see that the parents are really patient and they are in very high position in their job as I can see that from their wearing style and the things they use are branded. the kid is so lucky that he is living in dual-earner family with autoritative parenting style. And I can see that the kid loves his father so much in the way he showed some unwilling actions and expression when he was about to leave. It is kind of perfect family as in high SES, autoritative parenting style, dual-earner parents thereby it results in positive parents-child relationship.

Anyways, I took about 5 hours to finish 20 pages, and not even one chapter. Sad thing to tell, I hope I can finish studying children development by this Thursday, otherwise I don't know when to start another two subjects which are Expceptional Child Disorders and Adolescent Development...Total up, I have 12 chapters to go.....Vomit again and again!!!

Stick to old plan....Finish it by this Thursday....ish!!!

My Master- Bryant Chia, CEO

2009-06-28T10:30:00.000-07:00

7 days to go for final exam....Finally, it's coming to the end....

But, I can't really focus on studying recently, and keep feeling sleepy (I just slept in starbucks, omg!!!).

So, what can I do about it, I go to view facebook and only one man is able to motivate me is my master who taught me a lot about business and marketing stuff. He appears in my list, and I view his facebook. Further, I just knew that he's a CEO and he's only about 27 year-old now!!! WTF!!!

I don't even think that there is a CEO in my social groups, this is where my motivation comes from. He's the one always motivated me when I was down, low confidence, but now I'm disconnected with him for long time due to my studies and his work path. He reminds me a lot of lessons I have gone through in MLM invesment industry. And now, one same question is confusing me again which is "what do you want?" It comes in a critical period sometimes, i don't know whether it's good for me to clarify my goals. I hope it's good for me and get the answer as soos as possible.

Final is coming, aiming As and Bs are not the problems!!!

Sleep time!!! Nite

2009-06-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

It has been long time that I do not update my blog. Cuz I'm having a damn short sem.

What to expect? Assignments due on every week and attending tutorials almost once a week.

BUT, I kinda like this kind of life style I think, I'm slowly become the workaholic who always make myself busy with every single time.

This time, it's fully productive with working with lynette's gang, you know their style once you join them. To be honest, I learn so much from them as in their teamwork, the roles they playing and one thing is high determination.

For me, it's a very wonderfull experience by working with them, no doubt at all.

A part from that, I think I need to see counsellor to solve my personal problems. As I have been thinking certain problems within myself, it's time to take action to move from my comfort zone to face the conflicts within myself from what I have monitored myself. Besides psychological problems, I need to see doctor regarding to my skin problem and it's been bothering me for couple of years, so what am I waiting for...( I already dun care about the cost )

Anyways, I just back from college and was having class and meeting since 9 sth in the morning, I need to rest and start doing assignment...

Case Study

2009-06-08T07:58:00.001-07:00

MICHAEL, age 16 first obtained his SPM results and found it was not good enough to enter Form 6 to do his STPM. He was in the Arts stream and personally, was not very academically inclined -- it was his parents, especially his authoritarian mother, who wanted to push him to aspire to going to Form 6 and kept on nagging him about this. They insisted that he re-take his O Levels and do better the next time to try and get in. They enrolled him in a private institution (even though the family was not well off) and after a few months, much to their consternation, he called it quits because he was not really interested in academic studies. This resulted in a lot of frequent fights, arguments and conflicts especially with his mother, who complained that they had spent their hard earned money on his education (only to see him quit) – they asked what he was going to do with his life? He was put under a lot of pressure, especially since Michael had two elder brothers who were in university and another elder sister in Form 6. He was always under the impression that he was being compared with his siblings who were seen by the parents as more successful and smarter than he. He thought of himself as “quite useless” but not totally a hopeless fellow!

In fact, Michael was very musically inclined. Since young, his parents had encouraged and supported him in musical activities. He was particularly talented in playing the drums, keyboards and guitar. He enjoyed singing, was a natural performer on stage, having taken part in various talentimes in school and played in concerts fronting his own indie rock band. Therefore, he wanted to be a professional musician, form a rock band and see how far he can go. However, his parents, particularly his mother objected strongly because she was “old-fashioned” and stereotypical in her thinking and abhorred the lifestyle of a rock musician so there was a conflict in values. (Besides, they were church goers and see rock music as the devil’s music). They were willing to sponsor Michael to take up classical music and hopefully, he could become a music teacher. However, Michael was interested in developing his performance skills and really enjoyed playing and singing in a band as this made him feel worthwhile as a person, rather than teaching classical music, which he did for a while and found it was really boring and not his cup of tea. This irked his parents even more (since they paid for his piano lessons and he only finished Grade 7) and resulted in frequent quarrels with his parents over what he wanted to do with his life. Michael (now 18) was confused and frustrated and did not know what to do. He needs your help and advice to cope and be a ‘bridge over troubled water’ at a critical time of his life.

F*king Hot

2009-06-07T09:06:00.000-07:00

I'm Headache all the way from morning until now!!!

D*mn It!!!

HOT LIKE HELL

2009-06-07T01:08:00.000-07:00

Today is 7th of June, Sunday...

Guess what!!??

It's damn HOT, HOT, HOT!!!!!

It makes me headache now...

What can I do??!!

Feel like go swimming now...

Can't Wait To Be Able To RUN

2009-05-29T10:22:00.001-07:00

It's been 2 weeks that my leg is still swollen...

I can walk and jump vertically but run...

Sad thing

I have very strong urge that I can run like a leopard...

Fly like this dog??....Could be but not now...

I believe I can fly....

I believe I can touch the sky...

It's time to rest again??

2009-05-19T06:10:00.001-07:00

Guess what again??

My left ankle was twisted and injure badly last nite.....T.T swollen big like a bun

Supposedly, I got 2 classes and a tutorial today, and i skip all of that....Ngok!!!

What to do, I can't even walk and drive...ish I only stay at home.

Recalling what happen last nite, my ankle was kicked by one of offensive players and it make my ankle twisted, then that stupid fellow was the first one to said "I didnt crash you..." he was really making a joke. I was really wan to slap him, but i didnt...anyhow, it's considered an accident...maybe it's good for me to rest in order to continue a longer journey^^

At that moment, the pain nearly killed me!!! Wana Scream!!! Somemore I was dizzy coz of lack of blood (blood donating on Sunday)...Then, went to see china tabib with Daniel, luckily he fetched me to see the doctor.

The funny thing is that, the doctor did some kongfu to us, he really put effort on promoting us....but then the pain still there. In the end, it cost me rm120 VERY EXPENSIVE!!!

When i was back, i can't sleep thru out the nite, the pain increased, then this morning i went to see another doctor, and she gave injection to me and told me that once you get injure, go to see western doctor 1st, after recovery then only go to see herbalist doctor to strengthen the weak part. Now I only know, no wonder my leg was more painfull...somemore i paid 120....

And now, I feel better and hopet I can drive tml, and i wan to go class...

Dream and Economic Crisis

2009-05-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

Dream...dream...dream....ZZzzz

Dreams only occur when we are sleeping?! I'm not talking that kind of dream^^ It's about what you hope to get in future and it could be either very fantastic and unrealistic or achievable.

For most of the successful people, they are great because of BIG dreams. Normally, there are very less people to think big and do big. Somehow, I'm wondering why it is so and it's free of charge to think big, dream big. They're not dare to dream, because of reality settings limit their abilities??

Economic crisis, these words always go around my ears recently...

does it matter you to make more money or getting closer to your dreams?? In fact, nowadays economic status is going down and even deeper but the critical thing is "economic crisis" two words. These two words come out from many people's mouth most of the time, it indirectly forms a negative thought on financial aspect, performance and others. How influential it is?? Have you thought of affecting relationship between your family members, friends and others by two words? have you thought of your self-identity, self-concept and others about self?

Actually, this is what I have experienced and realized that it does affect my life just because of the two words. It made me always think that it's a problem, so I have to do there and do this instead of what I suppose to do as in making choices, more concerning about money which is quite annoying sometimes. The main thing is that, it made me more stress on it that cannot focus on my current stuff. Somehow and don't know how, I figured it out and understood it why it is so, then everything becomes brighter and clearer.

For me, I'm a healthy thinking person from an unhealthy family. Why I said so? Both of parents are not that positive thinking people as what I think at the first place. Since today's lecture psy204, I change to look at different side of the causes for them. As what Peter Koh said, parents behave this way almost similar to how their parents behave to them as in passing the patterns from current generation to next generation which is inappropriate. Everything is changing, even biological, psychological, and physiological changes in human will never ever stop, still yet some people do not want to change, it may cause a gap between new age people and old style thinking people.

Rich dad, and poor dad, it's very famous around the world and everyone surely knows it. And for me, I have rich god mom and poor mom but I love both of them, just that they have a different thinking style on financial aspect which is similar to (It could be my pre-experience makes me think this way^^). Both of their perspectives do really improve my attitudes and the way of thinking on financial management, earning resources and others. I really appreciate their ideals and cares. And I not gonna talk about their differences of their thinking styles, because you know...kinda dilemma HAHA!!!

Anyways, there definitely have lots of factors may involve when a problem occurs. Do think more and deep but stubborn thinking...

Coming Back....

2009-05-09T21:58:00.000-07:00

Holiday, holiday, holiday...

After final exam, I straight away working for about one week and I realized that it kinda hard for male freelancers to get a part-time job. I'm keep looking at different website like asiaparttime.com, jobstreet and others, most of them wana hire female promoters or female flyer givers. Sien...

Therefore, I was gambling (playing mahjong) at Marcus place almost three times a week. Interestingly, I learned to make sushi at there too. It was so fun to learn new things, I can use it when going after girl^^ haha....Besides gambling, making sushi, I was invited to two days Genting trip too, but all of them go casino and I didnt go because of lack of money, so I can only enjoy my coffee in Coffee Bean with my god sis.

My holidays are almost finished as today is the last day. I gonna wake up tomorrow early in the morning to attend a class. I'm still thinking how many subjects I should take and I have the answer already just that I need to confirm the time of the classes is not crashed and the how many assignments I need to do in 2 months time. Besides that, I want to register as pal tutee to improve my studies. I really need to put full effort for this two months to get Bs. It is so sad that I never ever get a B since I started studying psychology. I'm wondering no matter how hard I try and change my study skills, I still cant get a B, that's why I wan to apply the Pal tutee.

For now, I need to re-arrange my holiday mode to study mode and my circadian too for study weeks coz I become nocturnal animal during holiday, sleep in day time and active at night time. NEED TO BE FULLY PREPARED FOR A NEW SEM!!! YOR~~~!!!

Confusion

2009-05-02T03:31:00.000-07:00

Resting....I had a really enough rest today.

I got up at almost 12 noon and not woke up naturally, but something (keep thinking of someone) made me awake....kinda strange and force myself not to think of it due to certain reasons and it's confusing me most of the time recently...

Perhaps I think too much of unecessary stuff and I should focus on my goals. Can I put this problem away for a while before I achieve my certain sub-goals??

.....Although life could be short, but wonderful. Trust me ^^

Genting!!! Sien~~!!!

2009-05-01T00:02:00.000-07:00

Genting, Genting and Genting....I'm sitting with Marcus's youngest sis now (she's just beside me in Coffee Bean and writting same topic for the blog!!!)...SIEN....

For her, Genting is a super duper place cited as her blog!!! hehe...quite lame!!!

For me, I just follow Marcus for fun....actually it's not that fun, because I have not enough cash and my bank is quite empty recently due to the postponed payment (still in the progress...DENG!!!) In the end, Marcus and his family go gambling, and the thing I can do is drink coffee while talking to my laptop in the cooler place than KL (although Lisa is sitting beside me...)

Well today is 1st of May, it's Labor Day and I suppose to attend my high school gathering either sing k or playing football then dinner at around Sunway...Luckily, I forget about this at all, therefore I can save the money...hehe....money again!!! I hate the feeling of Lacking Money and Cash most!!! Since my laptop was stolen, I straight away get into a financial crisis (negative 600), then someone cheated the Digi phone fee that I already pay means I have to pay back RM400 plus again and my glasses was gone means need to buy one again and cost me RM250 again...total up I owe 1000 plus (uncounted the digi fee).....Luckily, my ptptn loan approved, so I must clear all the stupid debts at first regardless of any circumstances....this is the main goal for current situation.

Besides all these encouters, only positive thinking keep motivating me to move forward, otherwise I'm like a ship never ever move and stop in the middle of ocean!!! So, I HAVE TO LEAD THE SHIP TO MOVE- LEADERSHIP (My own theory^^).

By moing forward, it means changes are a must. For instance, decreasing my daily expenses as low as possible and cut off all those unecessary expenses. Furthermore, CARI MAKAN (getting jobs or any earning potential chances) is very important to get resources. Saving money is not enough fast to clear the debts, need to get more and more resources perhaps using money to make more money....haha...Too soon to think aobut this!!!

One more to say is that, reading is a must for everyday, because our own knowledge is our richest thing that can't be stolen by others. For me, It's my mental meal that I have everyday. Just a couple of pages per day or night, and it's more than enough!!!

READ FIRST, THINK LATER!!!

Boring part- time job

2009-04-28T12:02:00.000-07:00

Straight away working after the final exam till today. Luckily, I'm off tomorrow and feel like not to continue the job as promoting the Campell's soups...

All this time, I'm working with Malays (no offense), so this is the first time I work with them and it has pros and cons...

Working with them is like relaxing and you can stop when you wan to stop...TOO FLEXIBLE!!! Somehow I don't like their slow-motion working style, coz I'm slightly type A person!!!

Basically, nothing much I can learn from this job, somemore the payment is low (rm7.5 per hour). For me, it is low, usually the standard price is rm10 per hour but then there is less and less events and functions since the economic crisis happened, so this is the only choice to earn a small money...

Keep looking for a better part-time job for next week now!!! Otherwise, I'm broke and stay at home till the end of holiday...sad thing!!!

Overloaded...

2009-04-13T10:35:00.001-07:00

Brain is heavy...

Full of information...

Eating Disorder...

Sex Dsyfunction...

Stress and Physical Health...

Substance Use Disorder...

Personality Disorder...

Ended up with...

Information Overloaded...

*&*%$#@#@#@#$&*!!@#

Studying....

2009-04-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

Keep on studying...

Non-Stop studying Abnormal Psychology (Chapter 12 Stress and Physical Health)...

Still many chapters to go...

Time won't stop for you...

No shortcut...

Finally...

2009-04-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

Finally...

I'm done with all the assignments

Now...

Only left final exam

Final rush for that

then holiday? or work?

Fail to plan, plan to fail...

Let's plan!!!

Tiring Training

2009-03-26T11:26:00.000-07:00

I was a team leader when I was playing for high school team...

I was the fastest and most accurate in shooting...

I was the best point guard in the team...

I was like Allen Iverson (labelled by team mates)...

After many injuries on my legs and Now...

Everything has to start from zero...

Forget what you were before...

Remember to be empty cup...

Learning is everything...

Learning, Learning and Learning...

Practice, Practice, and Practice...