Opz....today is Monday!!!
Tomorrow will be Tuesday!!! (like nobody knows!!)
It will be a good day for cooking!!!
Because it will be a cooking day with my friends^^
Maybe
I'm going to make some salmon starters?!
I think I know how to make it since I'm working for a catering company as a part-timer
Hope the recipe is still in my head
so excited to try it out tomorrow....
Here I come!!!
I don't know why bad things keep on happen on me? Or I should say I mess up my time more often for this semester? I'm quite frustrated and do not know how to release it.Frustrated about my thesis that I have missed out the presentation due to my partner's wrong information and lost 30%. And I'm so worried about my future somehow...that I didn't feel this way ever till now.
Could it be the thesis make me down all the way till now? Should I blame him? I knew our report will be very superficial for the lit review and theories, then I was fully prepared for the presentation, but it was over.
Another thing is that, I suddenly think whether psychology is really what I want. In year 3, it's so late that half a year to go to re-consider the course I'm finishing. is that an unnecessary pressure for now? I think I have to see counselor to solve my problems. it isn't good to be ignored this way...
I hope I can recover as soon as possible to stand up. I wish there are many things waiting for me to achieve and gain!!! There always have if I want
Something is still missing that I need it so much!!
I have been looking for it since 3 years ago...
Without it, I'm just so dry and my life is just colorless...
And, I know what is the thing I'm looking for
It's passion like getting up and go...
PASSION
Before writing this blog...
I was doing counseling assignment which talking about friendship issues...
What stop me from doing the assignment?
It is explanation of friendship...
I realized that I do not know how to explain it and
I used to have a bunch of best friends, so-call brothers...
and because of some issues I decided to give up them...
In college, I also used to have a best friend and so-call brother...
but this time I tried to save it...
still feel cheated and forcing myself to forget it...
what is friendship?
I have a lot of friends but in different categories...
basketball teammates, study group, church friends, business partners but...
not as close as best friend...
sometimes, i dislike feeling of being alone but I enjoy it sometimes....
hmmmm.....is that my problem?
maybe misperception bring me wrong mindset or something else?
As Gestalt theory said, focus here and now....
so I have to go back and focus on my assignment now!!!
bye~
I used to be steady in my friends' eyes...
Yes, I am
but I wan to be unsteady...
can I?
Steady, just because I don't always show anger or any negative emotions?
Steady, just because I keep every sad, angry stuff?
I'm in blue recently...
I'm frustrated recently...
Everything just doesn't go smooth recently...
Negative events bring negative emotions...
negative emotions lead to mis-perception...
it turns out more negative emotions...
it's like a snow ball effect...
the negative emotions keep rolling to be more negative...
such a negative post I have just done...
Will it be the last emo post for me?
Who likes negative stuff???
......
I was shock by this news which is about earthquake in Chile located in South-America.
It was 8.8 level of earthquake and about 200 people dead in this incident...
And, it will bring tsunami that affects New Zealand, Australia, Philippines, etc
Again, it reminds me about the 2012 movie that there will be the end of world at that moment...
I start to believe after I watching the movie and did some researches about Mayan's myth. Plus, many disasters being reported since last year. This is why I rather do something but doing nothing to get things done or else it will be too late. I have asked myself what do you want to do if the 2012 myth is true...
Live like were dying
Make your life more wonderful by now
and no time for hesitation
There are many places I want to go and travel...
and what stops me all this while...
I have been indeed thinking about it and
wondering how to solve it...
What is my motor behind the motivation?
Am I still staying in the comfort zone, so that I have nothing to strike for?
Financial Achievement is the priority?
what else other than financial achievement I want?
I'm writing this because I don't like the feeling of staying at home for doing nothing. I feel like must doing something when I have nothing to do or I do not know what I need to do. It becomes frequent recently that staying for doing nothing and still some concerns of unfinished works. Am I a workaholic? I love enjoying every after moment that I have done something significantly. In college life, I have not done any significant that can bring me higher level of thought. This what makes me so concern and my college life is finishing soon in end of this year.
Must do something!!!
