I'm not smart enough

I was just back from clubbing and it is considered early to leave the club...

Just because it was a boring social event...

First thing, I went because of my buddy!!!

To accompany him with no complains....

With its reason, his "friend" birthday celebration and I know no one in the party!!!

Plus, the his friend's friends were like unfriendly in my eyes!!!

That's the horrible experience I had for tonight

and confirm that it's the last one paying rm50 for nothing just drinking the bloody black label!!!

Fortunately, I met my high school junior over there...

then made so-boring to little-boring situation...

Still, it's funny that observing those drunk people dancing with out of tempo!!!

Plus, some horny guys were trying to...(you know!!!)

Haiz...another rm50 is gone!!!!

Need to work next week to cover this stupid debt!!!

p/s: I realized that I'm so stupid enough to let my brain aside for 3 years since high school graduation. Still, devalue myself unconsciously these days!!! Can somebody wake me up to be a smart planner with full strategies!!!

It's time to FIGHT?

Some of my friends told me that I'm in burn-out condition...

yea right....

I have been resting for 2 weeks...

or I could say I was numb for 2 weeks...due to some traumatic incidents?

Anyways, I had many beautiful days with my friends (Dionne, Kenneth, Val)!!!! Interestingly, Dionne WENT TO SUMMIT where she totally doesn't like ...HAHA...quite happy that Val and I were able to I grabbed her to Summit to shop around...

Still, I have to thank her for accompanying me to shop (I usually shop alone) and I bought a pair shoes with 50% discount. On that day, we were like having food marathon as 3 meals within 6 hours!!! Seriously, I was full like a fool. Firstly, we ate at Uncle John, Summit at about 5pm then Hokkien Porridge in SS14 at about 9pm. Last station, it was in Humble Chef in PBD where opposite Mcd. For Hokkien Porridge, it was the first with reasonable price and memorable taste (rm13 per person with 5-6 dishes), because Hokkien Porridge is expensive in KL areas and the porridge is watery like cook with no rice. Last round for food marathon, Humble Chef generously serves the cheapest spaghetti and lamb pita ever in my opinion. It was a great supper especially the lamb pita make my night^^

I wish I can go back to Humble Chef and tried another food. Besides the food, Humble Chef "restaurant" is a some kind of truck which the kitchen is the back and the place they set is on the flyover where the customers can enjoy the highway view with tasty lamb pita^o^ I think it's a good place for couple as well. Hoho...

Unfortunately, we didn't take some pictures but all the pictures are in my head now and no one can steal it^^ I so wish I can get a camera to capture all the memorable days. For now, I have to get ready for final exam with fuel.

Dionne!!! This is my dream car yo^^ thx for reminding my dream car. It's my motivation^^

Thank God for giving me such beautiful days. I knew that you never give up me...

In Jesus name, I say AMEN!!!^^

Boring Friday, it just an unproductive day.

I used to read when I'm free...

but it becomes lesser when I step into college life...

I had a long talk with my buddy who also loves reading...

but he's not a book worm.

He told many things I used to do especially the way of thinking...

and I found him like a mirror of me

Diverse thinking styles, creative ideas when I was in high school time.

I suddenly took a book from a rack which is full of dust on top

and the book named

(Most of the persuading skills I used are learnt from this book)

and started to read it slowly

realized that my laziness stops my brain functioning for long time ago.

Reason being, I'm getting lazy to think in detail because of learnt helplessness?

It reminds of the main concept of Reality Therapy- Choice theory...

It is a choice I make whether I'm learnt helplessness or thinking without thinking.

If it is a choice, I will have to make a move

First thing, language (English) is a big barrier currently

Because I think I have used many wrong words to express what I really mean...

especially some adjectives and limited vocabs in my head...

This could be the factor that turn a talkative guy into seemingly cool guy...

Please correct me when I speak wrongly!!!

Happy

Opz....today is Monday!!!

Tomorrow will be Tuesday!!! (like nobody knows!!)

It will be a good day for cooking!!!

Because it will be a cooking day with my friends^^

Maybe

I'm going to make some salmon starters?!

I think I know how to make it since I'm working for a catering company as a part-timer

Hope the recipe is still in my head

so excited to try it out tomorrow....

Here I come!!!

Frustration

I don't know why bad things keep on happen on me? Or I should say I mess up my time more often for this semester? I'm quite frustrated and do not know how to release it.Frustrated about my thesis that I have missed out the presentation due to my partner's wrong information and lost 30%. And I'm so worried about my future somehow...that I didn't feel this way ever till now.

Could it be the thesis make me down all the way till now? Should I blame him? I knew our report will be very superficial for the lit review and theories, then I was fully prepared for the presentation, but it was over.

Another thing is that, I suddenly think whether psychology is really what I want. In year 3, it's so late that half a year to go to re-consider the course I'm finishing. is that an unnecessary pressure for now? I think I have to see counselor to solve my problems. it isn't good to be ignored this way...

I hope I can recover as soon as possible to stand up. I wish there are many things waiting for me to achieve and gain!!! There always have if I want

Something

Something is still missing that I need it so much!!

I have been looking for it since 3 years ago...

Without it, I'm just so dry and my life is just colorless...

And, I know what is the thing I'm looking for

It's passion like getting up and go...

PASSION

Friendship

Before writing this blog...

I was doing counseling assignment which talking about friendship issues...

What stop me from doing the assignment?

It is explanation of friendship...

I realized that I do not know how to explain it and

I used to have a bunch of best friends, so-call brothers...

and because of some issues I decided to give up them...

In college, I also used to have a best friend and so-call brother...

but this time I tried to save it...

still feel cheated and forcing myself to forget it...

what is friendship?

I have a lot of friends but in different categories...

basketball teammates, study group, church friends, business partners but...

not as close as best friend...

sometimes, i dislike feeling of being alone but I enjoy it sometimes....

hmmmm.....is that my problem?

maybe misperception bring me wrong mindset or something else?

As Gestalt theory said, focus here and now....

so I have to go back and focus on my assignment now!!!

bye~