500 days of summer

These few days, I have been watching many movies which I got them from my friend...

And I just finish watching 500 days of summer...

I like the way how it portray the expectation and reality at the same time...

It seems to reflect on my life experience

and reminded me that I always expect good things happen where it's opposite in reality...

In this four year, I have gone after some girls and the process seems similar in the movie where I expect she would do this and that when I did this and that...

In fact, I always live in my own expectation

That has an impact my life nowadays which I do not know how to differentiate intimate relationship and friendship or others...

Not to say "do not know how to differentiate", I'm just confused about relationship man and woman, that is why I go with my feelings...

Like my mom said "there is no way to looking girlfriend or soul partner, but you will meet the right one."

By meeting right one, I may be in 40s...(that's my concept)

Recently, my concept slowly assimilates to my mom's concept...but not there yet!!!

Still looking for the right one~

When she appears in front me?

God knows...I believe in Him

Show me the way please^^

Sien-ness

When holidays come, I used to planning for working part time...

but the I only have 2 weeks holiday...

then due to the nowadays' market, events are getting lesser year by year...

Plus, who wants to hire people to work only for 2 weeks...

So, I'm thinking what can I do to self-improve...with low expenses

hmmm.....headache.....

I just cannot stand with staying at home and doing nothing....

Actually, there are many things to do...

How come I cannot think of?

of I only want to rest?

Wanna bang my head!!!

Too free to think so much...

Magical hand

I suppose to say happy holiday...

Yea I'm having about 2 weeks holiday...

But what happened tonight was really refresh all my childhood memories with my family...

and they are not so happy memories...

Just because of my hand touching on my poor sister's head...

Just wondering, why other family can treat each other like friends and having fun at most of the time but mine...

Some reason, I don't like to talk about my parents not because I don't love them...

but love doesn't mean whatever mistakes they have done can be rationalized to be accepted...

It's so dilemmatic

Maybe the cultural influences? Trying to externalize so many times but it is not a cure...

I always tell myself to keep trying no matter how...

Can I ask a question to my parent?

I always want to ask them whether money is more important than the relationship within our family members.

It could be a very hard question for them I guess...

You know what!!!

I'm gonna stop this kind of parenting style for my next generation!!!