I just slowly realized that the purpose of my blog is to keep other interesting blogs and read their updates rather than writing my own stuff. Especially, one of my favorite blog owned by a counselor in Singapore and he was my math teacher when I was in high school. His blog usually was written about his inspiration from his work. And, his values and beliefs really change me a lot in terms of values of life and the way to treat others.

Besides that, I have Jason Mraz's Blog as well. Somehow I can know he's quite supportive in green from his blog because he keeps advice people to save the environment. And of course he sometimes post his songs. I like the way how he connect life and music together.

Kina Grannis, another singer I like since I heard one of her song named valentine. Once you know me for long, you will know I like jazzy, country, swing or some smooth music that really can go with feelings yet meaningful.

Actually, I should get a camera maybe a good spec of digital camera to take some photos as human memory isn't perfect as we thought like a snap shot of everything we see. Snapping every piece of life then sharing with others, it's another joy of life. I believe a photo can tell a story, a story can tell a person's beliefs. Beauty of it.

Beauty of blogging too

Mask

I'm having a busy weekend...

working + assignment + another assignment..

But, I mostly focus on working not because I'm so money-needed

it's because I'm merely physically tired...

like trying to stand for about 8 to 9 hours and doing nothing...

But then, I choose to talk to my working friends and of course going with my funny style...

and suddenly one of them spoke about mask (self-presentation)

and it reminded me something I'm used to be skilled in it before I choose to be real...

The reason I chose to be real because it makes me feel comfortable...

but in between it brought hurt to me because it lower down my defend wall and cheated by a best friend I always thought.

Still, I choose to be real.

Although reality is cruel enough to make people fight or flight and different self-presentation in particular circumstances is needed in order to survive.

Still, I choose to be real.

If I set a wall that how I treat people based on how they treat on me...

Try to think again, if everyone of us set a mind as what I set the whole world will be as cool as hi-bye friend existed. There is always an initiator to make thing start, so does a relationship. Be truthful and nice to people and importantly to ourselves, and people start looking for you but otherwise.

Choosing to be real doesn't mean that you have to critique people directly in front of others.

Taking care of other's feeling is how you taking care of your own feelings.

There is always a reason when someone appears in your life. It could be few second and brings big changes.

You will never know what is happening next in your life...

it's like life is short but meaningful...

perfection is imperfection

Hanging Leg Raises for fast Lower Abdominal Development.

Best way to build lower abs!!!

Gotta try it tomorrow!!!

3 months! Will see!

常常想东想西的我，满脑子充满了很多很多不同角度的想法，可是却不知道如何在语言上表达。

而今天有了另一套逍遥派的想法-人最终回到原点？由于本身长期处于低与高潮的平衡点，同时也体会到真正的平静，心灵也达到安宁。可是不甘于平凡的心态也同时间地抗议，矛盾也因此奇妙而产生。人最终回到原点？的想法令我联想到自给自足的生活。 而为什么是一个问句呢？ 这也意味着世上无绝对的看法，否认与否决定于他人的看法。曾有一个想法对我印象深刻-人生的初二十年是无忧无虑地享受世界带来的惊喜，接着的三十五年便是为生活理想奋斗的岁月，至五十五更是剩下的晚年。。。人生短短，又何必执著地为人头纸流血，到头来人最终与大自然相依为命。。。这样的想法的确缺乏了推动力， 可是这是事实。哪要如何用比较正面方式与传达也正是我一直想要的一门技巧。。。又如何使用“人最终回到原点”来产生美妙的旋律，好让人们往前起舞蹦跳。。。

Life can be easy if you think so...

Wonderfulness

New semester starts

New Faces

New Knowledge

Still the same friends ever

Undoubtedly, God's love is everywhere...

Had me a dinner with a bunch of craziest friends...

Had me a wonderful holidays without loneliness but laughters...

Had me life experience that brings inspiration...

Had me truly knowing friendship and other relationship...

Every step in my life is memorable...

Every minute of my life is precious...

Every people in my life is more than memorable and precious...

Find a way to connect with my loved one...

Find a way to connect with friends around me...

God has me to walk with Him...

What I want to say is Amen to everything I have...

Need of Light

I didn't blog for a long time...

What I have done then?

To be honest, I'm fighting with loneliness recently...

It just happens to hold my hand...

I start resisting...

even enjoying it...

because of one belief "what you resist will persist; what you befriend will transcend."

But from here, I'm struggling...and...fighting...

Self-conflict is one of my friends now...

I called this process as growth...

I believe everyone needs a breakthrough in every season of growth...

like this picture portrays how breakthrough is...

A light from dark...

No more coward

I'm reflecting myself what I have done in this week and what I suppose to do for this week...

And I realized that I'm a coward...

I admit it...

I tell people to step out from their comfort zone

but in fact, I'm standing inside my comfort zone...

Such a coward...

Undeniably, I missed and skipped a lot of important things in 22 years...

and I denied the existence of the mistakes I made...

I'm gonna step out the coward zone by taking action to solve my unfinished businesses!!!

Pray for me if you read this post...

I'm gonna do God's a favor...

Driving with shadow, Feelings like Blues

Do people get blue when they're getting tired?

And how do they usually deal with the blue?

I think there is something not right within myself...

perhaps "the someone"...

caffeine withdrawal effects?

It's impossible and it's only a random blue-ness and not even listed in the DSM-IV

This blue-ness always want me to give up something or someone...

But he asked not to and keep it up and don't do the same mistake again...

I so wish that I can transcend the blue when especially occurs at this particular timing...

This is one of my strongholds...I admitted...

There something I want to say...

but...

Can I create the flow for myself to follow?

I'm just a mellow fellow

You're completely defeated when you compare yourself with others around you.

Recalling

Way back to the glory time in basketball, everyone clapped for his performance and his spirit at the basketball court. It's 4 to 5 years ago when there was a only little kid want to beat those tall guys at the basketball court.

This kid took more than 5 hours to train himself everyday just for defeating basketball giants.

He overcame all others' humiliation and turned it into stronger power to move forward.

In the end, he successfully stood firmly on the stage and playing games like playing a show with his tempo freely. The most accurate shooting and fastest player in the school but he was isolated once his ankle was sprained. At that time, he learned to be humble and pick up his own favorite basketball and started training his shooting. From that time, speed is a matter for him because of the injured ankle but his shooting styles were much different from last time and this was where the great 3 point shooter born. Undeniably, state players were scared by this little boy. Unfortunately, his basketball life is short, his injured ankle was getting worse and worse. He kept the pain for himself and continued fight for the team till one day. It was a cruel day for him that his ankle was twisted and he was abandoned outside the court. At that time, he lost faith to the team mates and left alone without looking back. He learned new thing-reality.

And, he decided to start new page of life.

Time flies, things change, we must change...

Feelings

People usually take things for granted?

Especially happen in family?!

I'm kinda against it occurs in family but every one in my family is doing it like nobody business.

They say something or blame something without caring other's feelings...

and I tried one thing this morning, it's something like projection...

This morning, I wanted to read a book, so I sat down and read then my mom asked me to do scratching while reading and the reason is that " it's not good for you to sit down and read, you're OBESE!!!" she said. Then, I was a little bit upset then answer "you too." After that, she was scolding back like a machine gun non stop for about 10 minutes. I was laughing inside my heart and asked myself if I project the feelings to her.

When I'm recalling it, I pull myself out of the situation and look from different angles. It reminds me how my family communicate and work together and they always kinda expect you know this and that but in fact, I know nothing about what you want or else and take your stuff without informing till I scold. I'm thinking whether I'm allowed say something without caring your and others' feelings in a family. Possibly, due to my people oriented personality, I don't agree with this unless there are some stupid same mistakes done again and again.

Actually, there are many so-called family traditions in my family that I want to stop from my generation because I can imagine what will happen in my future family if I follow the "family traditions". From here you can see I'm a rule breaker.

Anyways, time flies, things change, human's mind changes? this is a very good question to leave to answer. thoughts shape behaviors or behaviors shape thoughts?

"KL People are not GPS of KL"

I'm kinda like this...

There is a friend always remind me that don't take things for granted

especially family and friends...

But, there are many people doing the same thing again and again...

but her...

quite like her thinking style somehow...

At least she gave me an idea for life which makes my days with hopes and happiness...

I underestimated them.

That's my fault.

I hate looking at the screen of ATM machine that shows zero while I check my balance

Mother's Day Dinner

Happy Family Dinner @ Star Village @ Kuchai Lama

It's Mother's Day~

My brother and I decided to get them for a dinner

and of course we paid the bill (Quite painful)

Dad (老爷) & Mom

Cute right?! She likes mushroom soup~

I don't know why

Here is my brother showing the ugly face~

he always like to act cool somehow~

My shy sis only allowed me to take photo of her hand...why ya?

Elder couple

Actually I wanted to take photo of all the food but they were too hungry...

so you know when people are hungry, they will react faster once the food comes...

I was very happy to have family dinner, cuz it rarely happens in my family...

hope everyday is either Mother's or Father's day... even though my wallet slowly empty

God, thank you for the dinner I wish to have^^

500 days of summer

These few days, I have been watching many movies which I got them from my friend...

And I just finish watching 500 days of summer...

I like the way how it portray the expectation and reality at the same time...

It seems to reflect on my life experience

and reminded me that I always expect good things happen where it's opposite in reality...

In this four year, I have gone after some girls and the process seems similar in the movie where I expect she would do this and that when I did this and that...

In fact, I always live in my own expectation

That has an impact my life nowadays which I do not know how to differentiate intimate relationship and friendship or others...

Not to say "do not know how to differentiate", I'm just confused about relationship man and woman, that is why I go with my feelings...

Like my mom said "there is no way to looking girlfriend or soul partner, but you will meet the right one."

By meeting right one, I may be in 40s...(that's my concept)

Recently, my concept slowly assimilates to my mom's concept...but not there yet!!!

Still looking for the right one~

When she appears in front me?

God knows...I believe in Him

Show me the way please^^

Sien-ness

When holidays come, I used to planning for working part time...

but the I only have 2 weeks holiday...

then due to the nowadays' market, events are getting lesser year by year...

Plus, who wants to hire people to work only for 2 weeks...

So, I'm thinking what can I do to self-improve...with low expenses

hmmm.....headache.....

I just cannot stand with staying at home and doing nothing....

Actually, there are many things to do...

How come I cannot think of?

of I only want to rest?

Wanna bang my head!!!

Too free to think so much...

Magical hand

I suppose to say happy holiday...

Yea I'm having about 2 weeks holiday...

But what happened tonight was really refresh all my childhood memories with my family...

and they are not so happy memories...

Just because of my hand touching on my poor sister's head...

Just wondering, why other family can treat each other like friends and having fun at most of the time but mine...

Some reason, I don't like to talk about my parents not because I don't love them...

but love doesn't mean whatever mistakes they have done can be rationalized to be accepted...

It's so dilemmatic

Maybe the cultural influences? Trying to externalize so many times but it is not a cure...

I always tell myself to keep trying no matter how...

Can I ask a question to my parent?

I always want to ask them whether money is more important than the relationship within our family members.

It could be a very hard question for them I guess...

You know what!!!

I'm gonna stop this kind of parenting style for my next generation!!!

Light

I was confused

and I turned my head up

I saw light

It gave me answer

and turn it into action

How wonderful it is...

Thank God!!!

Choice?!

Anxious?!

because I choose to be anxious...?!

Stress?!

because this is the choice I make...?!

Tired?!

because I choose so...?!

All I want is to free myself from all of these emotions...

How?! Choose it?!

Protein Dietary

In these few days, I got sick and no appetite most of the time...

Only drinking protein is to keep myself full...

So, all my meals are protein!!! Scary right!?

I'm just no appetite because I cannot taste any when I'm having flu!!! Sigh~

Hope it can make me lose weight effectively...

and recover faster!!!

p/s: Pray harder and harder always before sleep...

I'm sick but strong still

Yea~I'm sick after that bloody boring clubbing night...ish!!!

Anyways, I still went to gym this morning!!!

I'm still strong because I slept for whole day yesterday!!! Amazing!!!

But, it's not the best part of today...

What make my day???

The Film Festival which done by Psychology of Film class!!!

AND PORK BURGER @ Tropicana!!!

For the film thingy, there were many inspiring films made by students and

I think they can be a professional actors/ actress (especially my friend-Val)...

Some of them were doing really great job for their production...

It's so amazing...!!!

Psychology students actually can do everything whatever is related to human being!!!

Some of the films made me cry a little in class

because I was trying so hard to hold my tears~

JUST TOO TOUCHING, CAN'T CONTROL!!!

On the other hand, FOOD is important to me especially TASTY FOOD!!!

There is a corner stall is selling PORK BURGER!!! Please trust your eyes what they see!!!

IT'S PORK BURGER!!!

It was the first time I eat pork burger and it's at LG floor @ Tropicana City Mall...

So sorry that I didn't take picture of it because I was too hungry^^

And one thing, the burger 100% doesn't have shared part and totally fresh!!!

This makes me hungry now!!! Suddenly think of HUMBLE CHEF!!!

OMG!!! I should change my BLOG NAME to BORN TO EAT!!!

p/s: Thank God. I had another great day^^

I'm not smart enough

I was just back from clubbing and it is considered early to leave the club...

Just because it was a boring social event...

First thing, I went because of my buddy!!!

To accompany him with no complains....

With its reason, his "friend" birthday celebration and I know no one in the party!!!

Plus, the his friend's friends were like unfriendly in my eyes!!!

That's the horrible experience I had for tonight

and confirm that it's the last one paying rm50 for nothing just drinking the bloody black label!!!

Fortunately, I met my high school junior over there...

then made so-boring to little-boring situation...

Still, it's funny that observing those drunk people dancing with out of tempo!!!

Plus, some horny guys were trying to...(you know!!!)

Haiz...another rm50 is gone!!!!

Need to work next week to cover this stupid debt!!!

p/s: I realized that I'm so stupid enough to let my brain aside for 3 years since high school graduation. Still, devalue myself unconsciously these days!!! Can somebody wake me up to be a smart planner with full strategies!!!

It's time to FIGHT?

Some of my friends told me that I'm in burn-out condition...

yea right....

I have been resting for 2 weeks...

or I could say I was numb for 2 weeks...due to some traumatic incidents?

Anyways, I had many beautiful days with my friends (Dionne, Kenneth, Val)!!!! Interestingly, Dionne WENT TO SUMMIT where she totally doesn't like ...HAHA...quite happy that Val and I were able to I grabbed her to Summit to shop around...

Still, I have to thank her for accompanying me to shop (I usually shop alone) and I bought a pair shoes with 50% discount. On that day, we were like having food marathon as 3 meals within 6 hours!!! Seriously, I was full like a fool. Firstly, we ate at Uncle John, Summit at about 5pm then Hokkien Porridge in SS14 at about 9pm. Last station, it was in Humble Chef in PBD where opposite Mcd. For Hokkien Porridge, it was the first with reasonable price and memorable taste (rm13 per person with 5-6 dishes), because Hokkien Porridge is expensive in KL areas and the porridge is watery like cook with no rice. Last round for food marathon, Humble Chef generously serves the cheapest spaghetti and lamb pita ever in my opinion. It was a great supper especially the lamb pita make my night^^

I wish I can go back to Humble Chef and tried another food. Besides the food, Humble Chef "restaurant" is a some kind of truck which the kitchen is the back and the place they set is on the flyover where the customers can enjoy the highway view with tasty lamb pita^o^ I think it's a good place for couple as well. Hoho...

Unfortunately, we didn't take some pictures but all the pictures are in my head now and no one can steal it^^ I so wish I can get a camera to capture all the memorable days. For now, I have to get ready for final exam with fuel.

Dionne!!! This is my dream car yo^^ thx for reminding my dream car. It's my motivation^^

Thank God for giving me such beautiful days. I knew that you never give up me...

In Jesus name, I say AMEN!!!^^

Boring Friday, it just an unproductive day.

I used to read when I'm free...

but it becomes lesser when I step into college life...

I had a long talk with my buddy who also loves reading...

but he's not a book worm.

He told many things I used to do especially the way of thinking...

and I found him like a mirror of me

Diverse thinking styles, creative ideas when I was in high school time.

I suddenly took a book from a rack which is full of dust on top

and the book named

(Most of the persuading skills I used are learnt from this book)

and started to read it slowly

realized that my laziness stops my brain functioning for long time ago.

Reason being, I'm getting lazy to think in detail because of learnt helplessness?

It reminds of the main concept of Reality Therapy- Choice theory...

It is a choice I make whether I'm learnt helplessness or thinking without thinking.

If it is a choice, I will have to make a move

First thing, language (English) is a big barrier currently

Because I think I have used many wrong words to express what I really mean...

especially some adjectives and limited vocabs in my head...

This could be the factor that turn a talkative guy into seemingly cool guy...

Please correct me when I speak wrongly!!!

Happy

Opz....today is Monday!!!

Tomorrow will be Tuesday!!! (like nobody knows!!)

It will be a good day for cooking!!!

Because it will be a cooking day with my friends^^

Maybe

I'm going to make some salmon starters?!

I think I know how to make it since I'm working for a catering company as a part-timer

Hope the recipe is still in my head

so excited to try it out tomorrow....

Here I come!!!

Frustration

I don't know why bad things keep on happen on me? Or I should say I mess up my time more often for this semester? I'm quite frustrated and do not know how to release it.Frustrated about my thesis that I have missed out the presentation due to my partner's wrong information and lost 30%. And I'm so worried about my future somehow...that I didn't feel this way ever till now.

Could it be the thesis make me down all the way till now? Should I blame him? I knew our report will be very superficial for the lit review and theories, then I was fully prepared for the presentation, but it was over.

Another thing is that, I suddenly think whether psychology is really what I want. In year 3, it's so late that half a year to go to re-consider the course I'm finishing. is that an unnecessary pressure for now? I think I have to see counselor to solve my problems. it isn't good to be ignored this way...

I hope I can recover as soon as possible to stand up. I wish there are many things waiting for me to achieve and gain!!! There always have if I want

Something

Something is still missing that I need it so much!!

I have been looking for it since 3 years ago...

Without it, I'm just so dry and my life is just colorless...

And, I know what is the thing I'm looking for

It's passion like getting up and go...

PASSION

Friendship

Before writing this blog...

I was doing counseling assignment which talking about friendship issues...

What stop me from doing the assignment?

It is explanation of friendship...

I realized that I do not know how to explain it and

I used to have a bunch of best friends, so-call brothers...

and because of some issues I decided to give up them...

In college, I also used to have a best friend and so-call brother...

but this time I tried to save it...

still feel cheated and forcing myself to forget it...

what is friendship?

I have a lot of friends but in different categories...

basketball teammates, study group, church friends, business partners but...

not as close as best friend...

sometimes, i dislike feeling of being alone but I enjoy it sometimes....

hmmmm.....is that my problem?

maybe misperception bring me wrong mindset or something else?

As Gestalt theory said, focus here and now....

so I have to go back and focus on my assignment now!!!

bye~

Steady vs Unsteady (private speech)

I used to be steady in my friends' eyes...

Yes, I am

but I wan to be unsteady...

can I?

Steady, just because I don't always show anger or any negative emotions?

Steady, just because I keep every sad, angry stuff?

I'm in blue recently...

I'm frustrated recently...

Everything just doesn't go smooth recently...

Negative events bring negative emotions...

negative emotions lead to mis-perception...

it turns out more negative emotions...

it's like a snow ball effect...

the negative emotions keep rolling to be more negative...

such a negative post I have just done...

Will it be the last emo post for me?

Who likes negative stuff???

......

ChileQuake

Surprisingly, I woke up at 9am by dad talking loudly about a news this morning!!!

I was shock by this news which is about earthquake in Chile located in South-America.

It was 8.8 level of earthquake and about 200 people dead in this incident...

And, it will bring tsunami that affects New Zealand, Australia, Philippines, etc

Thanks god that US is ready to help Chile Obama said.

Referring to the website to get more detail: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/8540289.stm

Again, it reminds me about the 2012 movie that there will be the end of world at that moment...

I start to believe after I watching the movie and did some researches about Mayan's myth. Plus, many disasters being reported since last year. This is why I rather do something but doing nothing to get things done or else it will be too late. I have asked myself what do you want to do if the 2012 myth is true...

Live like were dying

Make your life more wonderful by now

and no time for hesitation

Something for nothing?

There are many places I want to go and travel...

and what stops me all this while...

I have been indeed thinking about it and

wondering how to solve it...

What is my motor behind the motivation?

Am I still staying in the comfort zone, so that I have nothing to strike for?

Financial Achievement is the priority?

what else other than financial achievement I want?

I'm writing this because I don't like the feeling of staying at home for doing nothing. I feel like must doing something when I have nothing to do or I do not know what I need to do. It becomes frequent recently that staying for doing nothing and still some concerns of unfinished works. Am I a workaholic? I love enjoying every after moment that I have done something significantly. In college life, I have not done any significant that can bring me higher level of thought. This what makes me so concern and my college life is finishing soon in end of this year.

Must do something!!!

Beautiful Thinker

I just finish reading a chapter- Be a Beautiful Thinker

Robin Sharma said that "Dream big and your behavior will follow but think small you will play small". What a brilliant words that address the message clearly to me and this is how a beautiful thinker's thought.

"You will never go any higher than your thought."

Yes, I agree that your every action and behavior is shaped by your thoughts. And this reminds me that I used to give a thought every morning when I get up from bed as in smiling to myself through the mirror and tell myself I'm looking good today. In fact, it helped me a lot to get through the hardest period I had before. Plus, it give hope to me in every walk.

How do you think that you will get what you have expected?

It did appear some times in my life and I also heard there is an opposite outcome as you expected. That's the matter of thoughts.

Thoughts -> Behaviors & Actions -> Confidence & Reality

Smile to yourself everyday no matter what you have gone through

People do good things to good people &

What flows in your mind moves your soul.

Year of the Tiger

YoYo~~!!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Dye to a brand new year of tiger, I hope that I'm energetic like a tiger in this year!!!

Non-stop working on some of my unfinished stuff...

For examples...

Relationship?

Study?

Body Building?

Music?

It seems a lot things need to be done in this year...

I'm quite exciting about this year with hugging hopes to get a break through!!!

I need a BREAK THROUGH!!!!!!

When I said to myself that I'm born to change, in fact, I want to motivate myself that everything I face is changing all the time and I have to accept it and go with the flow confidently...

I felt so tired these few days that helping a person who doesn't help him or herself. What on earth makes he or she take my offer...

and I'm confused whether I'm always the one who move too fast that makes me feel I'm always the only one moving...

Somehow I'm feel lonely and slowly become aimless in term of what I want...

I went to a talk and a man share one thing with us "Success is an open book test." and his name is Mike Ray...

I always have a book with me and I need it when I'm lost...

Questioning myself, why you're always lost...I have no answer all the time

"Go with the flow, Matthew!!!" I said to myself all the time

A small talk with Multi-millionaire

You might hear someone's dad or uncle is millionaire...

You might see how they enjoy their life...

You might have chance to meet them but miss...

Have you ever talked to a multi-millionaire so far...

I'm not showing off that I have talked to a multi-millionaire...

but tonight...

I'm proud of what he has truly taught me how to do business and what kind of life you want...

He said : " what type of car you drive, how fast you can reach, determines how far you can go..."

it's really inspired me that choosing a right company, right timing, right team, and right coach are indeed key factors to succeed. More importantly, timing is the first and most key because time waits no one.

The ever first gold in life, it always involves highest spirit, effort, and energy to be achieved. After all the tougher periods, I believe that we will be standing at a higher point to view the world especially the mindset is differently changed and view things in many angles. I may call it flow...

I can feel the engine getting hot now...do you? my friends...

I'm here to share just a little but I can promise you will have a chance to meet him if you want to have a different lifestyle...Believe yourself