Friday, December 25, 2009

Nikon D3000

I always wish I can have a SLR camera

take photos where I have been...

Due to my poor memory,

I need camera indeed to capture the feelings within people and the places I have been...

I believe that photos can tell a vivid story...

and I'm always a storyteller (sharing is caring...^^)

Here is the one I hope to get Nikon D3000



It has guide mode to guide the beginner like me...

and 10 mega pixel, 11 auto focus system, 3 inches screen size, 100-1600 ISO

and the price is about 2k...

When I can get this...???

It will be my next target...

Friday, December 18, 2009

ugly truth

I was wondering and thinking what I have been learning from psychology

and a light suddenly came out in my mind that

truth is the word was showing in my head

and are there any relations what I learn...?

Yes, there is

Finding truths, it is what I learn so far from psychology that

tracking origin causes and understand the truth...

Truth is always ugly somehow it's undesirable in people mind

most of the time, people tend to intellectualize bad thing that

seems to be just better and positive

but

is that true?

Truth, fight or flight is the solution of facing it...

There is no morally right or wrong between fight and flight in my point of view

what do you think?

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Last Paper

I/O Psychology was the final paper for today and it really was a hell in the exam hall that keeping flipping my textbook and few of my printed journals to get the information for the 4 essays...
I had more than enough information but limited time not allowed me to finish the paper,and the worst thing was that I find lots of relevant journals that is out of textbook hope to get better result, but it gave me an empty hope that I only use 2 out of 11 journals I had printed and printing cost is about RM12!!! Most of the question were covered by textbook, is totally not what I expected from my lecturer who always makes us think out of the box....

Anyways, I finished my complains...Supposedly, I feel relief and happy simply because I already finished my last paper and going to have my holiday. But, I'm not in that mood now and I don't see I have put full effort on the paper even though I spent long time on studying it. This thinking keeps showing in my head while I was driving home and wondering why I'm in some kind of emptiness feeling after the exam...
Could it be that most of my course mates still have one paper to go on this Thursday, and I'm the only one who is free and nowhere to go with? Or the performance of the exam affects my mood? At this moment, what I always do when I'm lost and nowhere to go, is to get answers my favorite book by randomly flipping the book and read.
Here is the title, Burn the Extra 1 Percent... and this short article inspires me immediately by "The last 1 percent most people keep in reserve is the extra champions have to courage to burn." This reminded me the preparation of exam of mine that I did put most of the effort on it but all...and this is why I don't have the feeling to say "I give it my all, I did the best." and this made me dissatisfied after the exam.
Plus, the opportunity for outright greatness comes at the every moment that ordinary people give up, this is what I have to remember it heart by heart especially in dealing with my thesis which due on 3rd week of next semester...
Here I go for my next target- THESIS 1, I'm going to lighten my inner fire.

Let's fire up!!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

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There is a signal for my body--red light

Telling me that my body reached a limited point...

It's time to rest, my body and mind...

It was a tougher time for me doing 3 previous papers while having heavy sick...

my nose is getting drier because of non stop blowing my nose these days...

especially during exam...

I was not busy writing on my paper, but blowing my nose...

Hope to get soon well...

one more paper left and it's the hardest paper on next Tuesday...

I didn't study at all today!!! (the medicine too strong)

HELP HELP!!!


Saturday, December 5, 2009

Girl~~

Just back from work an hour ago...

Catering, this is the work that make me late...

But, I met a girl, her bridge of nose is very beautiful unlike the typical Asian kind of nose...

And a little bit chubby, overall, she's my type!!! hahaha...

Unfortunately, she has boyfriend (too bad for me),

Still I had a chance to drop her back to her hostel...

we had a very nice chat in the car I guess^^...

haha....somebody starts dreaming...

Don't just live in your own world...

somehow, exam reminds me to concentrate, keep the mindset...

Alright, self-driven but avoidance instead...

Girls~~~they are so interesting for me!!!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Nothing

Nothing, you may ask is the content similar as the previous post...?

Although the title is similar as Nothing or No thing...

It's different meaning for what I wan to express...

In my today's world, nothing means unproductive

meaning done nothing

see nothing

gain nothing

talk nothing

......

Nothing gain when you are seeing on the screen with doing nothing and thinking nothing

nothing can be something but still nothing...

What do you get from nothing?

nothing much I can address

Nothing can be pointless and meaningless

Can you see something from me?

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Nothing or No thing

As the picture shown, it's the title for today's post. Nothing, what comes to your mind when you first see it? No Thing or Nothing? Anyways, it's the still the same meaning...

Nothing, this is what I can say for today's productivity- nothing I have done today!!! Although it's Sunday today, it's not an excuse to do nothing and at least do something!!! It makes me feeling guilty...
Therefore, I must fully use my time on the coming weekdays, then I only have an excuse to rest on weekend...The more time I rest, the lazier I am...It sounds like a workaholic though!!!

One more assignment and thesis on week 14!!! I must stick with my plan, otherwise my Thailand trip becomes bubble flying in th sky and slowly disappear from my eyes!!!

Well, it's time to sleep early to get more energy for tomorrow!!! I'm coming TOMORROW!!


Saturday, November 14, 2009

Finally, I/O report was done 2 days ago....

It was a nightmare that driving me to crazy!!!

In progress of I/O report, I had gotten fever for few times,

one was high fever, scary experience (first time)...

Overall of the assignment, it cost about RM300 plus...

the most expensive assignment I had

Now, I totally forget about past experience (I/O assignment)...

and focus on other assignments (3 of them)...

2 are from group process and another is career guidance integrative report...

after all the assignments, final exam will be coming soon...

I won't be having holiday, because of the thesis 1...

such a college life...

I want travelling by the way...

who can go with me???

I'm badly wishing I can meet a right person that always travelling with me...


Saturday, October 24, 2009

Learnt Helplessness

Again...

I already used to my exam result...

Damn it!!!

Should see a counselor...


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Lost

Touching Song I had never ever heard before....


I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the right man was on the wall
If I'd only knew
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying
Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
Cause when you feel like you\'re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

Monday, October 19, 2009

小波动与大波动

怎样的人能够让你有小波动的心跳?

那怎样的人又让你有大波动呢?

已经好久没有大波动了。。。

小波动就一堆。。。

大波动,你在哪里???

老子常主张顺其自然。。。

随缘吧。。。

哈哈哈~

Saturday, October 17, 2009

It has been a long time that something hidden fire in my body and it's always trying to drive me to a crazy mode and I always suppress it without any reasonable reason. I'm wondering whether it is my inner self want to push me to further steps and what is the reason I stop it.

Sine there is no reason, and why don't just let it be dominant and go for crazy...

"No great life was ever built on a foundation of excuses. So stop making them."

I think I was afraid of changes, rejection, unfamiliar incidents...

Because of that I started making excuses and always thought that I'm at the higher level of the building to see things differently from others, but I realized that I'm wrong all the way. Making excuses doesn't make you live high...it's just a self-defense and a seemingly beautiful lie on myself.

Too ironically, I always told my friends that to do what you want to do, to be what you want to be. But, it's hardly to happen on myself and I hardly to present my real self in front of others.

"To be what you want to be..." Damn it! Too ironic! I have to do something now!



NEVER EVER LIE TO YOURSELF



Mahjong Marathon!!!

This time and my first time that I play mahjong till vomit...

We started playing at Friday night (about 12am till 6am)...

Then it finally ended and had a good sleep (till Saturday, 2pm)...

then....no choice....

started another round at about 330pm....

and ended it by 1130pm....

OMG...

Super tired and my head is damn heavy now

Gosh...


Thursday, October 15, 2009

Last day for Mid Term

Last day, my mid term exams were finished....

but...

Usually, as a college student, they will have lots of plans after exams even for the last day...

but...

I don't have this kind feeling that my exams are over...

maybe...

I only had 2 papers and it seemed quite easy... technically, I'm not sure whether it's simple...

because...

I only took 2 days to study 2 papers...

so...

you can see how much effort I had on my papers...

I need a target as a driver to fly me to the moon...

I need motivation to fasten up my steps...

I need stamina to stay up most of the time...

I need...



Sunday, October 11, 2009

Not again~~

I wish it will be tough in the future and recover as fast as possible...

Cuz, I have many miles to go and I need your company till the end of day....

Remember?! we have been fighting together since we were born...

Starting from crawling then walking...and you helped me to stand up...

Nowadays, I can stand firmly because of you, both of you...

I love you, be tough and recover soon!!!

Monday, October 5, 2009

The best memory I have never had

As you see the title of this blog, do you think that I really have a very good memory....

You will know if you're my friends...

why said so...

I TOTALLY FORGOT MY FRIEND'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY LAST NIGHT!!!

GOSH!!!

What happen to me??? How can I forget it???

To be frank, my memory is like dysfunction recently...

It could be caused by lack of sleep and rest or too relax and no stress???

Mid term exams are coming soon and I'm feeling nothing....

is it one of the symptom of learned helplessness???

or I'm already immune...

COME ON!!!

GET UP!!!

MORNING!!!

COME BACK LOOOOOO!!!!



Tuesday, September 29, 2009


人与人之间也需要平衡。。。

即,自身。。。


Life is SHORT but wonderful...

"Life is short but wonderful..."

This is kind of common slogan I think everyone knows

and I'm wondering how short the life is in this sentence...?!

For me, life is really short as in there are many things happen in next second or minute, but saying how long you can live.

There is something happen to my friend's dad...

Just a hour time without any messages and went away...

Can I call it such as a life?

I'm not being pessimistic, just had never ever happened to me before and I can feel with her deeply losing a closest person forever...

Just assuming that I can only live till 50 and I now only have 29 years to go...

What should I do now???

And always how???




Thursday, September 24, 2009

My days are like holiday now even though new sem started for weeks...

I know that there are many works need to be done, but still in holiday mode because of the 2 days Raya holiday made me more into holiday mode....

The laziness keeps following behind me...

And the personality test we had it in career guidance class, actually makes my life become more relaxing...CUZ I'm R (Relational) type of personality, I call it relaxing type of personality.

I admitted that I'm kinda relaxed person and always try to get high achievement. It sounds weird that a relaxed person wanna get better result and it doesn't make sense somehow.

I just realized that I will be working on this coming Sunday, and I suppose to go church on that day...and I skip again!!!

My life is going to be mess soon if I still in a relaxing holiday mode!!!

I need to hand up a proposal of part of selection by tomorrow night, and so far, I haven't started yet...and the thing is that most of my group members are quite anal type of personality which means impatient on doing something and try the best to finish it short time and it's totally opposite of me...anyhow, I'm one of the group members, have to compromise a little bit to fit in...

Besides, I have been practicing guitar almost 2 hours everyday since last week. Suddenly, I find it interesting and kinda having fun with guitar like simply playing it at everywhere around my house...kinda relaxing lifestyle I have recently!!! For sure that, it is one of my dreams to be a pub singer in around beach areas. I can sing with my guitar while just walking on the street beside the beach and kind of enjoyable lifestyle... just like Jason Mraz (My Favorite Singer).

wow....love this kind of lifestyle..haha

Still dreaming, it's good to dream and it's free of charge by the way^^

So why don't you try it!!??

Saturday, September 12, 2009

If a person who lives in a life which is full of challenges, he or she will vigorously keep fighting...

What if the person was pull into a situation or living style which is peaceful and relax, what the person will be?

I believe that people who love challenges, are able to adjust themselves rapidly in different circumstances...

Once the person adjust himself or herself to fit the peaceful and secure life, is he or she able to fight like before when he or she was placed back to challenging life...?

Time is the key, but duration is the matter. It does matter in realistic world...

How does the person can recover in a short time to face the challenges again?

Scream like a Spartan? Fight like a Spartan?

300 is my favorite movie although it's very aggressive that most of the psychologists don't encourage...

"Answers are the past, Abilities are the future..."



Wednesday, September 9, 2009



心中好像有一团猛火想要爆发出来的感觉。。。

闷在心中好久好久了。。。

想爆又爆不出。。。

感觉有点像便秘。。。

最讨厌这种感觉。。。

他奶的!!!


Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Happy 21st Birthday To Matthew

Tonight, it was really a memorable night I have never had before...

My friends- Bee, Chee Yan, Serene, Ah Yong, Hui Chi, Yek Wei, John and Tim...

Thank you very much for the dinner, surprise and the kisses^^

I don't know what to say...

It was very touch and try hard to act tough not to cry...haha...sounds stupid!!!

I enjoy my college life becuz of all of you...

Whoever I met, thx and glad to know them...

Life is short but wonderful...

Finally, I'm 21 now^^...

it makes me feel like it's time to start my journey...

In fact, it's really a time to start...

Plan the 1st step of my career...

Goals and Sub-goals...

My right person^^....haha

Anyways, I wish all of friends have a wonderful life^^

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

That's what money for...

Today....

Woke up at 630am!!! Cuz I had to bring my popo to Pudu market to buy something...

There were about 10 kg stuff on my hands...plus it was raining...

My cute popo still wana buy meatballs...although I love eating it, but I can see all the ways I can walk were totally disgusting and I was wearing slippers...and the place smell was like BULL SHIT!!!

That's fine with me cuz we can finish it sooner and went home sleep again...

Sleeping till about 1pm...

Feeling like going gym...

About 230pm reached Midvalley...then started my training...

During training, there was a uncle beside me and he did the wrong way for the abdominal part...

I definitely taught him the right way and we started a few conversation and he said one thing that inspired me suddenly....

Basically, he's retired for years and he quite enjoys his late life and i can see that he quite concerns about healthy...

This cute uncle told me that retired people must enjoy their retirement life, THIS IS WHAT MONEY FOR...

I was wondering what make him say this words...

What he experienced before...

Earning and then spend it...

Spending it doesn't mean that buying something like materialism...

For me, it could be invest on something like share, houses and others that invest money to make more money...

"This is what money for..." told me that money is really a external thing that we can use our creativity to earn once it is spent...

And, money is not really a big deal although it seems to be...

The big factor that determines how much you can earn is FINANCIAL IQ...


This is what I want^^




Monday, August 31, 2009

Today is 31st of August, and it's very important day for for Malaysians...Merdeka!!!

For me, It's just a usual day...it sounds like I'm not proud of my country.

In fact, I only dislike the government in this country and there's nothing I can do for it unless I'm the boss of them..haha!!! whatever~

Today is the last day of my holiday too...

I'm kinda excited that another new sem is going to start, and there are many challenges are waiting for me...

Besides academic stuff, there is another thing bothering me these 2 days. And It is something like when I started doing Synergy worldwide as crossing out my comfort zone. Frankly, it's about network marketing which I was accidentally invited to a business talk by a girl's friend and I curiously accepted the invitation. Initially, It was about the finger prints that can indicate your personalities. Therefore, as a psychology student, it's very interesting stuff to learn and study and I couldn't say the curiousity kills the cat but save a cat...?

One taiwanese who is the master of finger prints teller, his student took my hands and seriously look and catergorize my finger prints. As I know, palm prints are always changing but I'm not about finger prints whether they are unique due to our DNA. Continue with my type of finger prints, the master explained that I'm a very cool and serious when I'm in a strange place or meeting with strangers but in fact, I'm a very very open minded and "crazy" inside my heart. When I'm facing strangers and unfamiliar places, my observation will highly increase and analyze everything to get prepared, make me sound like a hunter (isnt it good?). Once people mix with me for certain time, I'll totally open my heart and become super approachable...

To make a story short, I have a very high efficiency but there is a difficulty in making decision as in keep shaking and not sure or too many infor that hardly make a decision and it would take a long time to process, therefore this is the big weakness in my future as he said to me. Moreover, he said that I'm a totally completely a marketing person who can learn things fast enough to improve and my creativity will always help me in business career.

So, as you are my friends, how do you think about my finger prints' indication? How many percentage you guys think that it's true? I have my answer for sure...

Subsequently, there is the business talk started. Monavie- it's a US company which products mainly focus on healthy, anti-aging and others. As I know from the talk, this company will be open the first branch in Asia, Malaysia. And the finger prints master is the person who brings this business to Taiwan and now is Malaysia. The first thing came to me is that, I could be the top 20 or 30 persons under his line. Will you think it better than joining in half way when the company is growing? It could be my another big challenge...

I'm always wondering that I hardly make things complicated but why this decision takes me long time to think? I always ask myself are there anything you worry about? The answer is always NO...

Confusing myself...I think I need guidance!!!


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Supposed to be happy rite?

If you wana go after a potential partner, the process would be happy and positve...??

I'm wondering if it's the other way, will it be considering admiring or going after a person?

In fact, It's just a simple thing and "no ask, no get" concept only?

isnt it easier to talk rather than doing it in a realistic way?

Or the oppsite way?


Btw....I'm emo+ing now....ish!!!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Mission Accomplished^^

7.00pm, 23th of August, Mission of 30 famine was officially accomplished.

Thx Robin Sharma for the advices " Answers are about the past, Abilities are about the future".

I really fully utilize my holiday and enjoy organizing event. For sure that there were something more than organinzing this event which is knowing a lot of crazy friends...this is the first time I met so many of them. Besides that, I have learnt more about the meaning of letting go and picking up in my thoughts. That's wonderful although I still think that the stuff I do is still not good enough and there are still some improvement can be done.

Since everything is over, answers and abilities definitely will bring me to next step closer to success.

Anyways, I need some pictures of 30 famine. Otherwise, my blog will be boring without a single picture. Haha!!

Friday, August 21, 2009

Sooner...

"No Ask, No Get"

What I want is a wish....

Asking a wish, then get it to be true...

How do you think?

Can I call it as a life?

Such a life!!!



Smilling everyday that brings hopes to yourself and others...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Just a Wish

Can I have a joyful and peaceful family?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Brilliant Words

Something just inspired me just like enlighten my another side of world!!!

"Answers are about the past, ABILITIES ARE ABOUT THE FUTURE."

These brilliant words are taken from Robert T. Kiyosaki's book calls Increase Your Financial IQ.

I always want to get answers for problems, but he changed my mind that once you get the answer, do you have the ability to solve the current problems and next coming problems. However, I don't mean that answer is not important just like money isn't the most important in our life. We still need answers for certain problems and ability helps us to move forward and even faster. Ability, it can be strengthen and improved to solve higher levels of problems. The problems could be finance, relationship, social connection, businesses and others.

ABILITIES, it's forever power, mental or physical to do something in life...


He really enlightens my another side of world...enlightens my life as well.


Saturday, August 8, 2009

30 Famine Training in HELP

Today, I just need one word to describe the training- MESS!!!

I had my Mcd breakfast at 815am...

A phone call made me rush to KDP A for the training...

I thought I can continue enjoy my coffee...mana tau!!!

The training officially started at 930am...

Almost everything in last minute especially the venue layout (just be informed yesterday)...

In fact, I just have one important thing to bried the group leaders-HEADCOUNT

After that, I brought them to main block and briefly explain the purposes for each venue...

nothing much...just no mood to entertain them although they seemed very bored,

so I just finished my job then back to KDP A to get my logistic volunteers.

Lunch time 1230pm to 130pm...

Return to KDP A, it's time to brief volunteers, but I only need some of them which 8 of 30 volunteers cuz another half of them didnt show up and program team needs more people to run their games, so......circumscript.....

Luckily, Leng Keat was there to entertain the rest of volunteers...he helped a lot today and I just know that he's trained by Toastmaster...and his public speaking is spontaneously perfect!!!

Same thing as group leaders, 8 of them were brought to main block to brief them in different catergories. And my briefing session was done early, then I just fooling around in KDP A with HuiChi (Chinese Camp Leader)...We took a lot photos....dun know why!!!


To conclude....

Throughout the whole day training...

It's very unproductive...

It's totaly out of my expectation...

I think I need to adjust my mindset on my work...

First, focusing on security team for the emergency plan...

Try to imagine, more than 700 people stay in HELP Main Campus (lower and upper foyer)...

There is always a hope...

Can you see that?

I saw it and it's with me now^^





p/s: There are many photos you can get it from fb...lazy to upload photos and it takes very long.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

A Band

Start forming a band seems "easy" but...interesting^^

When it comes to modify a song and sing it, it's kinda hard and many discussion about which pattern we need to put in ending or else.

As a singer, it's not a easy job as well!!!

Sometimes, it has to be spontaneuos to adjust the tone, the volume and others during the performance in my opinion. And singing or playing a band is not a formula that follows steps by steps, but artistic....^^

To be honest, this is the first time that I sing with a band, it's kinda cool!!!

And I have a great experience with them...

So far, we have 2 practices in FTC, it's a church full of equiment as in those instruments and sounds system.

Now, I'm really thinking of getting a band...

Maybe....

One day....

You will see us in

TV shows

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Waking up at 2pm!!!

Suprisingly, I woke up at 2pm!!!

This is what I won't ever wake up at this time, cuz I think it's wasting my time!!!

However, I did wake up at 2pm today (Sunday), it could be I have been busy that sleep late and wake up early like yesterday's event. Psychology Challenge Day, It's some kind of competition of psychology that whoever get into top 3, they will be rewarded scholarship at least 16k!!!

Only one participant that grabbed my attention on that day, although I was like all the way sleepy (reached there by 8am) and her name is Millie Ong if I'm not mistaken. There were 3 rounds of MCQs and she almost got full marks, I could see her future at that moment. Especially, during her presentation, her answers were short but precise. I believe that she amazed all the psychology helpers at that time. And, most of us already knew the result of 1st prize will be her. Finally, she got 64k scholarship which is for foundation course and 3 years course in any of HELP courses.

Besides that, I had my gathering after that event and I went home 1st to get prepare then immmetiately rush to the garthering. You can guess how tired I am...All the way from 7am something till 1am midnight...I can say that I'm no longer a ironman that time passes, I need a healthy life...haha!!!


p/s: Going Gym Tomorrow Morning!!! My target is getting closer by day to day^^

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Random

Hey there^^

I just found that I love one of my philosophy so call Flexible Philosophy!!!

Haha!!!

开怀大笑,你我跟着 Xiao (Hokkien)!!! Haha

Wednesday, General meeting for 30 hours Famine Camp...

I think I'm not well prepared for today's meeting, cuz I forgot to drop down most of the things in my laptop...and I sponteneously present the infor on the spot and solve on the spot!!!

Still, blur...ish!!! I really need to improve my expression as well as English-speaking...

Anyways, the logistic stuff is on the track now and basically what they have reminded me I already note down in laptop last nite, still thank them for reminding me again^^

Besides that, I found one interesting thing is that, my friend has a similar past experience as mine. She reminded me that the mindset and personalities when I was studying in high school. As in school time, I used to have a best group of friends who are always hanging out, doing stuff together, but shockly I was boycotted because of some silly and childish reasons. At that time, I was quite care about others' opinions on me and it made my life stressful but this incidence changed my life. To be frank, I have to thank them again that it changes the way I view myself and others.

To conclude, one mindset I gain is so called So What mindset^^.

WOW!!! So What!?


Monday, July 27, 2009

What a semangat day....

Can you imagine, me, Matthew Ma, woke up at 630am and prepare to California fitness (but over slept again). And then I was the first customer for them to sign up as a member (costs me RM311++, wana cry).

As within this month, I really spent a lot, and really need to spend it wisely le....

Back to the training, I focused on my upper body which is easier to build up and they are core mucles as well. Since it's easier to train, I did many sets and reps for different mucles. FINALLY, all of upper body mucles are painful...

Nvm....my target is closer now.....keep going...

woohoo!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

You know what...Doing exercise is making me fresh and even more energetic!!!

Today, I played badminton with my college friends, one of them named leong who was a state player, he really has the patient to teach us...and we sweat so much which is good for health. Haha...I'm back home at about 3.30pm, and I have to reach my church by 5pm!!!

WOW...no doubt, today is a very good day for me^^ However, I spent almost 50 today coz of buying the one set of shuttlecock for my sister, haiz....mana tau it costs rm40....sakitnya...

Anways, it's fun to do exercise and I'm thinking of joining California Fitness Center, cuz I'm really free in this holiday, I think It's time to train and build my body up...look more masculine!!! HAHA~~MASCULINE


Friday, July 24, 2009

"总结报告" cited as Rebecca Lam, 2009

Holiday mode...

But it's not what I expect, cuz...

there have something happen that needs my help...

No more trips, but it's my willingness to help...

Only getting part time jobs to fill up my empty time for weeks,

giving tuition recently, and

having fun with my friend who was born almost same time with me...

I see her as my reflection somehow...funny as well

So far, I have no plan for holiday...it's weird, unlike me...

and I don't like too...

Need to do something productive...

Still, Planning...

To Be Continue....

^^



Tuesday, June 30, 2009

My Day in Starbucks

Chapter 14 Families- the chapter I was studying in SS2 Starbucks today for psy 203 final exam!!!

Interestingly, there was a family sit behind us and the parents play their kid while doing their work. At that time, it reminded me what I'm studying and they really did a good job on children rearing. First of all, the thing impressed me is that the kid is playing the laptop and see something cool from maybe website to others and tell his dad that "Dad, you see, it's cool..." and the dad reply emotionally "Wow!! Awesome!!". Actually, the dad was looking at his laptop screen and doing his work at the same time, it's funny actually. In this family, I can see that the parents are really patient and they are in very high position in their job as I can see that from their wearing style and the things they use are branded. the kid is so lucky that he is living in dual-earner family with autoritative parenting style. And I can see that the kid loves his father so much in the way he showed some unwilling actions and expression when he was about to leave. It is kind of perfect family as in high SES, autoritative parenting style, dual-earner parents thereby it results in positive parents-child relationship.

Anyways, I took about 5 hours to finish 20 pages, and not even one chapter. Sad thing to tell, I hope I can finish studying children development by this Thursday, otherwise I don't know when to start another two subjects which are Expceptional Child Disorders and Adolescent Development...Total up, I have 12 chapters to go.....Vomit again and again!!!

Stick to old plan....Finish it by this Thursday....ish!!!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

My Master- Bryant Chia, CEO

7 days to go for final exam....Finally, it's coming to the end....

But, I can't really focus on studying recently, and keep feeling sleepy (I just slept in starbucks, omg!!!).

So, what can I do about it, I go to view facebook and only one man is able to motivate me is my master who taught me a lot about business and marketing stuff. He appears in my list, and I view his facebook. Further, I just knew that he's a CEO and he's only about 27 year-old now!!! WTF!!!

I don't even think that there is a CEO in my social groups, this is where my motivation comes from. He's the one always motivated me when I was down, low confidence, but now I'm disconnected with him for long time due to my studies and his work path. He reminds me a lot of lessons I have gone through in MLM invesment industry. And now, one same question is confusing me again which is "what do you want?" It comes in a critical period sometimes, i don't know whether it's good for me to clarify my goals. I hope it's good for me and get the answer as soos as possible.


Final is coming, aiming As and Bs are not the problems!!!

Sleep time!!! Nite

Thursday, June 18, 2009

It has been long time that I do not update my blog. Cuz I'm having a damn short sem.

What to expect? Assignments due on every week and attending tutorials almost once a week.

BUT, I kinda like this kind of life style I think, I'm slowly become the workaholic who always make myself busy with every single time.

This time, it's fully productive with working with lynette's gang, you know their style once you join them. To be honest, I learn so much from them as in their teamwork, the roles they playing and one thing is high determination.

For me, it's a very wonderfull experience by working with them, no doubt at all.

A part from that, I think I need to see counsellor to solve my personal problems. As I have been thinking certain problems within myself, it's time to take action to move from my comfort zone to face the conflicts within myself from what I have monitored myself. Besides psychological problems, I need to see doctor regarding to my skin problem and it's been bothering me for couple of years, so what am I waiting for...( I already dun care about the cost )


Anyways, I just back from college and was having class and meeting since 9 sth in the morning, I need to rest and start doing assignment...

Monday, June 8, 2009

Case Study

MICHAEL, age 16 first obtained his SPM results and found it was not good enough to enter Form 6 to do his STPM. He was in the Arts stream and personally, was not very academically inclined -- it was his parents, especially his authoritarian mother, who wanted to push him to aspire to going to Form 6 and kept on nagging him about this. They insisted that he re-take his O Levels and do better the next time to try and get in. They enrolled him in a private institution (even though the family was not well off) and after a few months, much to their consternation, he called it quits because he was not really interested in academic studies. This resulted in a lot of frequent fights, arguments and conflicts especially with his mother, who complained that they had spent their hard earned money on his education (only to see him quit) – they asked what he was going to do with his life? He was put under a lot of pressure, especially since Michael had two elder brothers who were in university and another elder sister in Form 6. He was always under the impression that he was being compared with his siblings who were seen by the parents as more successful and smarter than he. He thought of himself as “quite useless” but not totally a hopeless fellow!

In fact, Michael was very musically inclined. Since young, his parents had encour­aged and supported him in musical activities. He was particularly talented in playing the drums, keyboards and guitar. He enjoyed singing, was a natural performer on stage, having taken part in various talentimes in school and played in concerts fronting his own indie rock band. Therefore, he wanted to be a professional musician, form a rock band and see how far he can go. However, his parents, particularly his mother objected strongly because she was “old-fashioned” and stereotypical in her thinking and abhorred the lifestyle of a rock musician so there was a conflict in values. (Besides, they were church goers and see rock music as the devil’s music). They were willing to sponsor Michael to take up classical music and hopefully, he could become a music teacher. However, Michael was interested in developing his per­formance skills and really enjoyed playing and singing in a band as this made him feel worthwhile as a person, rather than teaching classical music, which he did for a while and found it was really boring and not his cup of tea. This irked his parents even more (since they paid for his piano lessons and he only finished Grade 7) and resulted in frequent quarrels with his parents over what he wanted to do with his life. Michael (now 18) was confused and frustrated and did not know what to do. He needs your help and advice to cope and be a ‘bridge over troubled water’ at a critical time of his life.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

F*king Hot

I'm Headache all the way from morning until now!!!

D*mn It!!! 

HOT LIKE HELL

Today is 7th of June, Sunday...

Guess what!!?? 

It's damn HOT, HOT, HOT!!!!!

It makes me headache now...

What can I do??!! 

Feel like go swimming now...

Friday, May 29, 2009

Can't Wait To Be Able To RUN

It's been 2 weeks that my leg is still swollen...
I can walk and jump vertically but run...
Sad thing
I have very strong urge that I can run like a leopard...


Fly like this dog??....Could be but not now...

I believe I can fly....
I believe I can touch the sky...


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

It's time to rest again??

Guess what again?? 

My left ankle was twisted and injure badly last nite.....T.T swollen big like a bun

Supposedly, I got 2 classes and a tutorial today, and i skip all of that....Ngok!!! 

What to do, I can't even walk and drive...ish I only stay at home.

Recalling what happen last nite, my ankle was kicked by one of offensive players and it make my ankle twisted, then that stupid fellow was the first one to said "I didnt crash you..." he was really making a joke. I was really wan to slap him, but i didnt...anyhow, it's considered an accident...maybe it's good for me to rest in order to continue a longer journey^^

At that moment, the pain nearly killed me!!! Wana Scream!!! Somemore I was dizzy coz of lack of blood (blood donating on Sunday)...Then, went to see china tabib with Daniel, luckily he fetched me to see the doctor. 

The funny thing is that, the doctor did some kongfu to us, he really put effort on promoting us....but then the pain still there. In the end, it cost me rm120 VERY EXPENSIVE!!!

When i was back, i can't sleep thru out the nite, the pain increased, then this morning i went to see another doctor, and she gave injection to me and told me that once you get injure, go to see western doctor 1st, after recovery then only go to see herbalist doctor to strengthen the weak part. Now I only know, no wonder my leg was more painfull...somemore i paid 120....

And now, I feel better and hopet I can drive tml, and i wan to go class...


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Dream and Economic Crisis

Dream...dream...dream....ZZzzz

Dreams only occur when we are sleeping?! I'm not talking that kind of dream^^ It's about what you hope to get in future and it could be either very fantastic and unrealistic or achievable. 

For most of the successful people, they are great because of BIG dreams. Normally, there are very less people to think big and do big. Somehow, I'm wondering why it is so and it's free of charge to think big, dream big. They're not dare to dream, because of reality settings limit their abilities?? 

Economic crisis, these words always go around my ears recently...

does it matter you to make more money or getting closer to your dreams?? In fact, nowadays economic status is going down and even deeper but the critical thing is "economic crisis" two words. These two words come out from many people's mouth most of the time, it indirectly forms a negative thought on financial aspect, performance and others. How influential it is?? Have you thought of affecting relationship between your family members, friends and others by two words? have you thought of your self-identity, self-concept and others about self? 

Actually, this is what I have experienced and realized that it does affect my life just because of the two words. It made me always think that it's a problem, so I have to do there and do this instead of what I suppose to do as in making choices, more concerning about money which is quite annoying sometimes. The main thing is that, it made me more stress on it that cannot focus on my current stuff. Somehow and don't know how, I figured it out and understood it why it is so, then everything becomes brighter and clearer. 

For me, I'm a healthy thinking person from an unhealthy family. Why I said so? Both of parents are not that positive thinking people as what I think at the first place. Since today's lecture psy204, I change to look at different side of the causes for them. As what Peter Koh said, parents behave this way almost similar to how their parents behave to them as in passing the patterns from current generation to next generation which is inappropriate. Everything is changing, even  biological, psychological, and physiological changes in human will never ever stop, still yet some people do not want to change, it may cause a gap between new age people and old style thinking people. 

Rich dad, and poor dad, it's very famous around the world and everyone surely knows it. And for me, I have rich god mom and poor mom but I love both of them, just that they have a different thinking style on financial aspect which is similar to (It could be my pre-experience makes me think this way^^). Both of their perspectives do really improve my attitudes and the way of thinking on financial management, earning resources and others. I really appreciate their ideals and cares. And I not gonna talk about their differences of their thinking styles, because you know...kinda dilemma HAHA!!!


Anyways, there definitely have lots of factors may involve when a problem occurs. Do think more and deep but stubborn thinking...


Saturday, May 9, 2009

Coming Back....

Holiday, holiday, holiday...

After final exam, I straight away working for about one week and I realized that it kinda hard for male freelancers to get a part-time job. I'm keep looking at different website like asiaparttime.com, jobstreet and others, most of them wana hire female promoters or female flyer givers. Sien... 

Therefore, I was gambling (playing mahjong) at Marcus place almost three times a week. Interestingly, I learned to make sushi at there too. It was so fun to learn new things, I can use it when going after girl^^ haha....Besides gambling, making sushi, I was invited to two days Genting trip too, but all of them go casino and I didnt go because of lack of money, so I can only enjoy my coffee in Coffee Bean with my god sis. 

My holidays are almost finished as today is the last day. I gonna wake up tomorrow early in the morning to attend a class. I'm still thinking how many subjects I should take and I have the answer already just that I need to confirm the time of the classes is not crashed and the how many assignments I need to do in 2 months time. Besides that, I want to register as pal tutee to improve my studies. I really need to put full effort for this two months to get Bs. It is so sad that I never ever get a B since I started studying psychology. I'm wondering no matter how hard I try and change my study skills, I still cant get a B, that's why I wan to apply the Pal tutee.  

For now, I need to re-arrange my holiday mode to study mode and my circadian too for study weeks coz I become nocturnal animal during holiday, sleep in day time and active at night time. NEED TO BE FULLY PREPARED FOR A NEW SEM!!! YOR~~~!!!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Confusion

Resting....I had a really enough rest today.

 I got up at almost 12 noon and not woke up naturally, but something (keep thinking of someone) made me awake....kinda strange and force myself not to think of it due to certain reasons and it's confusing me most of the time recently...

Perhaps I think too much of unecessary stuff and I should focus on my goals. Can I put this problem away for a while before I achieve my certain sub-goals?? 

.....Although life could be short, but wonderful. Trust me ^^

Friday, May 1, 2009

Genting!!! Sien~~!!!

Genting, Genting and Genting....I'm sitting with Marcus's youngest sis now (she's just beside me in Coffee Bean and writting same topic for the blog!!!)...SIEN....

For her, Genting is a super duper place cited as her blog!!! hehe...quite lame!!!

For me, I just follow Marcus for fun....actually it's not that fun, because I have not enough cash and my bank is quite empty recently due to the postponed payment (still in the progress...DENG!!!) In the end, Marcus and his family go gambling, and the thing I can do is drink coffee while talking to my laptop in the cooler place than KL (although Lisa is sitting beside me...) 

Well today is 1st of May, it's Labor Day and I suppose to attend my high school gathering either sing k or playing football then dinner at around Sunway...Luckily, I forget about this at all, therefore I can save the money...hehe....money again!!! I hate the feeling of Lacking Money and Cash most!!! Since my laptop was stolen, I straight away get into a financial crisis (negative 600), then someone cheated the Digi phone fee that I already pay means I have to pay back RM400 plus again and my glasses was gone means need to buy one again and cost me RM250 again...total up I owe 1000 plus (uncounted the digi fee).....Luckily, my ptptn loan approved, so I must clear all the stupid debts at first regardless of any circumstances....this is the main goal for current situation. 

Besides all these encouters, only positive thinking keep motivating me to move forward, otherwise I'm like a ship never ever move and stop in the middle of ocean!!! So, I HAVE TO LEAD THE SHIP TO MOVE- LEADERSHIP (My own theory^^).

By moing forward, it means changes are a must. For instance, decreasing my daily expenses as low as possible and cut off all those unecessary expenses. Furthermore, CARI MAKAN (getting jobs or any earning potential chances) is very important to get resources. Saving money is not enough fast to clear the debts, need to get more and more resources perhaps using money to make more money....haha...Too soon to think aobut this!!!

One more to say is that, reading is a must for everyday, because our own knowledge is our richest thing that can't be stolen by others. For me, It's my mental meal that I have everyday. Just a couple of pages per day or night, and it's more than enough!!!


READ FIRST, THINK LATER!!!  

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Boring part- time job

Straight away working after the final exam till today. Luckily, I'm off tomorrow and feel like not to continue the job as promoting the Campell's soups...

All this time, I'm working with Malays (no offense), so this is the first time I work with them and it has pros and cons...

Working with them is like relaxing and you can stop when you wan to stop...TOO FLEXIBLE!!! Somehow I don't like their slow-motion working style, coz I'm slightly type A person!!!

Basically, nothing much I can learn from this job, somemore the payment is low (rm7.5 per hour). For me, it is low, usually the standard price is rm10 per hour but then there is less and less events and functions since the economic crisis happened, so this is the only choice to earn a small money...

Keep looking for a better part-time job for next week now!!! Otherwise, I'm broke and stay at home till the end of holiday...sad thing!!!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Overloaded...

Brain is heavy...

Full of information...

Eating Disorder...

Sex Dsyfunction...

Stress and Physical Health...

Substance Use Disorder...

Personality Disorder...

Ended up with...

Information Overloaded...

*&*%$#@#@#@#$&*!!@#

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Studying....


Keep on studying...

Non-Stop studying Abnormal Psychology (Chapter 12 Stress and Physical Health)...

Still many chapters to go...


Time won't stop for you...

No shortcut...



Sunday, April 5, 2009

Finally...

Finally...

I'm done with all the assignments

Now...

Only left final exam

Final rush for that

then holiday? or work? 

Fail to plan, plan to fail...

Let's plan!!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Tiring Training

I was a team leader when I was playing for high school team...

I was the fastest and most accurate in shooting...

I was the best point guard in the team...

I was like Allen Iverson (labelled by team mates)...

After many injuries on my legs and Now...

Everything has to start from zero...

Forget what you were before...

Remember to be empty cup...

Learning is everything...

Learning, Learning and Learning...

Practice, Practice, and Practice...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Moody...or Blank....

Blank?? Doesn't mean Feeling Blue??

Quite confusing about emotions...

Can't really tell the exact one...

Or do not think of that at all...

Avoiding?? Why??

Maybe Music's able to heal this disorder...

Listening to the rigth music...

Tell the right feelings...

How do you think??

Thursday, March 19, 2009


MusicPlaylistRingtones
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

A Tiring Week

Finally, I did it my way...

Non-stop doing assignment since this Monday...
Mon, Conducting Survey 
Tues, Conducting Survey
Wed, SPSS Test and Parkinson's Disease Essay (without sleep)
Thurs, PSY208 class, Basketball Training
Fri, Praying to have enough time to rest (maybe mahjung again)
Satur, Morning basketball training (considering), Watching badminton tournament.
Sun, Sleep for whole day...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Chapter 4- Be So Good They Can't Igonre You

"Life is always fair in the end. Trust it"

"You do not merely want to be the best of the best. You want to be considered the only ones who do what you do."

"Get good or get out."

Being so good not only on people and on what you do too. Mostly, it can make the people
around you that can't ignore you. I'm wondering that what if there have no any returns for being
good all the way, so that's no point for being good anymore. One word only answers my question--
Trust!!! It depends on how much you trust it, once you don't trust, you will give up or stop it. For 
sure that's an important mindset, an additional suggestion for that is to do in a smart way- "change".
Don't give up but change the way you do. 
"Get good or get out"- I like it so much...it creates a very strong spirit for me to move forward.
GO!GO!GO!!!