Steady vs Unsteady (private speech)

I used to be steady in my friends' eyes...

Yes, I am

but I wan to be unsteady...

can I?

Steady, just because I don't always show anger or any negative emotions?

Steady, just because I keep every sad, angry stuff?

I'm in blue recently...

I'm frustrated recently...

Everything just doesn't go smooth recently...

Negative events bring negative emotions...

negative emotions lead to mis-perception...

it turns out more negative emotions...

it's like a snow ball effect...

the negative emotions keep rolling to be more negative...

such a negative post I have just done...

Will it be the last emo post for me?

Who likes negative stuff???

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